Im missing you to death.
I can't wait for this to be over and have things go back to normal... wait this is normal! for once i want the un-natural to happen! I want to spend time with my friends and brian again. but gimme gimme never gets, and i wont get that till the shows are over. I feel like an awful person for letting brian hang forever. i make him wait all the time and i know its good to know that he would wait for me, but i have definatly abused my privliges. like today i was with my aunt at a dance store when he called me on my cell phone, my aunt made me get off the phone and try some clothes on. she also made a round about comment that he comes second in this week and next. The problem is that hes been like 3rd and i know hes feelin it. I didnt even get to call him back and i havent been that nice to him latley. stress and other things have taken over my head, pushing him out. I think hes getting the feeling that i dont like him like i use to and thats not true at all, none whats so ever. just...idk. there just isnt any excuse for me to be acting this way. but shit happens and this is one of those shitty times, another obstical to get though i guess. AHHHHH!!! i just want it to be over. my legs hurt, im stressing myself out to where i get sick, my school work doesnt get done at home only in the hour before the class that its due in.
its lame that i have to write this all down in my livejournal for other people to read, when i cant even tell the person that im writting about. Hes only a phone call away but its late and i dont want him to get in trouble. its not fair! i want him here with me. to tell me things are going to be alright. that "we're" going to be alright.
its lame that i have to write this all down in my livejournal for other people to read, when i cant even tell the person that im writting about. Hes only a phone call away but its late and i dont want him to get in trouble. its not fair! i want him here with me. to tell me things are going to be alright. that "we're" going to be alright.