dead wives, lost love and excruciating pain
It hurts so much...I don't even know why...my ex wife killed herself many years ago. Everytime I think about it now, I want to cut out my heart with a sharp blade..it hurts that much...she couldn't come to me...she couldn't let me help her..I screamed at her grave and cried and cried. I don't know how I feel anymore I don't know if I know how to love at all...I miss that bitch...who didn't even love me enough to not hang herself from a tree...it hurts I don't know if I've ever loved anyone since. I am hurting so bad and I do not know where to go to..I don't know how to cope...I want to love...but I'm scared....its taken me years to even identify with the pain and start to let it go....and all I can think about is how much it hurts.