just feel like it.
so yes it has been quite a while since i last did this. see im a journal reader more than a journal writer..haha that actually made sense! so lets see i had a pretty good thanksgiving if i do say so meyself. i had dinner at my house and then i spent the night over my dads house and saw all my family on my dads side so it was fun. then i went home friday and did a lot of nothing..well i actually went to the hospital with my mom because my grandpa was there just getting some tests done and he had to stay over night because of various reasons that im really not aware of but hes ok now...so then saturday was a lazy day..did not go out at all..i didnt even take a shower haha..and then today i had to go and buy basketball sneakers because tomorrow i have tryouts! i have mixed feelings about doing it..like half of me is anxious and excited to do it and then another part of me is nervous that i wont make it. but im just going to go out there and try my hardest and if i make it that will be great and if i dont..well..thats ok too.
on thanksgiving i felt like a skanky whore. lol. i was talking to a bunch of boys all at once and we were talking bascially about anything and everything you could think of and i mean it was nice..i like having all their attention and being flirty with a bunch of boys without becoming a slut about it. i felt like i was "back in the game" just because i havent really been flirty or talked 2 boys lately since we have been in high school and i was starting to get worried that relationships were over with me but this weekend helped me realize that its just beginning! :)
so im not sure who i want to pursue a relationship with yet..this kid stephen asked me out..but the one thing that kind of makes me not want to go out with him is that jasmine already went out with him and no offense but..i dont want her leftovers. and then this kid trevor who i kno from volunteering wants me to go out with him but..i just dont know if im interested in more than a friendship with him..but then there is this kid mike who i absolutely am totally head over heals with! ( jen you remeber mike) uhh he is sooo hot! he wants to go out and so do i but we live a lil seperate ( he lives in abington ) so im not sure if i want to deal with a sort of kinda long distance relationship right now. i mean i love him to death and i will proably end up going out with him even with the seperation just because he makes me happy and i havent been that happy with a boy in quite a while. well ok i need to stop. bye.
on thanksgiving i felt like a skanky whore. lol. i was talking to a bunch of boys all at once and we were talking bascially about anything and everything you could think of and i mean it was nice..i like having all their attention and being flirty with a bunch of boys without becoming a slut about it. i felt like i was "back in the game" just because i havent really been flirty or talked 2 boys lately since we have been in high school and i was starting to get worried that relationships were over with me but this weekend helped me realize that its just beginning! :)
so im not sure who i want to pursue a relationship with yet..this kid stephen asked me out..but the one thing that kind of makes me not want to go out with him is that jasmine already went out with him and no offense but..i dont want her leftovers. and then this kid trevor who i kno from volunteering wants me to go out with him but..i just dont know if im interested in more than a friendship with him..but then there is this kid mike who i absolutely am totally head over heals with! ( jen you remeber mike) uhh he is sooo hot! he wants to go out and so do i but we live a lil seperate ( he lives in abington ) so im not sure if i want to deal with a sort of kinda long distance relationship right now. i mean i love him to death and i will proably end up going out with him even with the seperation just because he makes me happy and i havent been that happy with a boy in quite a while. well ok i need to stop. bye.