dreading tomorrow.
yea i honestly do not want 2morrow to come..4 some reason tomorrow just seems like its gunna be a bad day 4 me and im already feeling depressed about it. and the sad thing is i dont even have a good reason why i dont want 2morrow 2 come..hmm...is it myabe cuz i have gym first period and then i have math long hour? could be...or is it cuz i really wanna get my eyebrows done but my mom sed shes takin me saturday? or could it possibly be i really do not feel lyk seeing ppl 2morrow just cuz and i do not have a reason why. i feel lyk things are such a rollercoaster..one minute im happy go lucky and luv every1 and then the next minute i dont wanna have anything 2 do wit ppl around here. things are so confusing and i dont kno wat 2 do anymore. im so sick of being happy one minute and then sad the next. and i feel lyk i can be wicked depressed about somethin and then all of a sudden...im happy and i look bak and im lyk that was a dumb reason 2 be sad. lyk ryt now im writin this and im startin 2 realize that tomorrow isnt gunna be such a bad day..i mean yea i have gym first period and math long hour but besides that its not that bad. another thing that bugs me about myself is that lately i think of the worst and i wont accept something good..i just take it as oh god now that somethin good happened somethin bad has 2 happen..and i dont kno why i think that way cuz i mean i kno i shouldnt be so negative its just..uhh everythin is just so weird and annoyin lately. i just want things 2 be bak 2 normal wen there wasnt all this drama in my lyk and wen i didnt worry about every lil thing that happened. lyk take 4 instance the main reason i dont wanna go 2 skool 2morrow is cuz garrion told me that sarah gets mad in math class cuz she doesnt lyk how alex c. makes fun of sarah s. and i honestly dont see how she does but ok. and even lil things lyk that get me worried lyk oh god wats gunna happen? idk..i just sometimes dont wanna be hea and then otha times i luv it hea. uhh i hope that this confusion passes and my life will go bak 2 the way it used 2 be. i dont think i can take this rollercoaster much longer lol. well ok now that i cleared my thoughts im gunna go and wait 4 jen 2 get out of the shower so i can talk 2 her cuz lately wen ever im down or worryin about some stupid thing i just talk 2 jen and i feel happy and i realize how stupid i was 4 worryin or bein sad about somethin. well i luv u all that luv me bak and i hope every has a great day. luv, ashley