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Time for an entry....Do you even remember me anymore ? :)
Went to the doc for the first time in 4 months. Told him all. Sat while his disappointment washed across his desk and over me. His reaction was as I suspected it might be: just stop. Right now. Ah, so helpful, this doc of mine!
In reality, it IS somewhat helpful-- for the accountability factor, having this authority figure attempt to smack my headspace back to reality. I mean, I went in there for a reason--probably to get an ass-kicking, knowing that it might spurn toward better behaviour. He also pulled a med, as it is likely to give me seizures, given my rotten behaviour of late.
I feel relieved that I went in there and tattled on myself. Stopping the spiral.
Also:
Got meself a haircut so as to look nifty for a party tonight. I look a bit like a boy, which is good: I like having something to counteract the really girlie dress i am wearing (which I am wearing because I have it and don't have the inclination or cash to go out and buy something new.)
That is all. For now.
Went to the doc for the first time in 4 months. Told him all. Sat while his disappointment washed across his desk and over me. His reaction was as I suspected it might be: just stop. Right now. Ah, so helpful, this doc of mine!
In reality, it IS somewhat helpful-- for the accountability factor, having this authority figure attempt to smack my headspace back to reality. I mean, I went in there for a reason--probably to get an ass-kicking, knowing that it might spurn toward better behaviour. He also pulled a med, as it is likely to give me seizures, given my rotten behaviour of late.
I feel relieved that I went in there and tattled on myself. Stopping the spiral.
Also:
Got meself a haircut so as to look nifty for a party tonight. I look a bit like a boy, which is good: I like having something to counteract the really girlie dress i am wearing (which I am wearing because I have it and don't have the inclination or cash to go out and buy something new.)
That is all. For now.