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today was an interesting day.
bush won. wich blows. id like to get out of the country. sadly im at the point were i am ashamed to be an american. i dont want to have to be ashamed of who i am or where im from. so things need to change or i need to leave.
on a lighter note i skipped my classes today and went for a really long amazing hike. i havent been on a good hike like that for a while. i needed it. it was amazing outside today. not too warm, not too cold. the trees here are the most mind blowing colors. it put me in a much better mood than i started out at this morning. i dunno i guess i just feel like im loosing my sence of who exactly i am, and thats all ive ever had is a good sence of myself. but im surrounded by college, treated like some sheep. stuck in a cell and overwhelmed with school work. dont get me wrong, i love to learn and i love my classes. but it hasnt been giving me the time to read and write and hike. thats why i took the day off today, i was getting depressed to the point where i was over my head. but today helped a lot. i feel like i got back in touch with myself. and i was able to sort some personal shit out that wass diving me insane. i guess its simply that when im surrounded by so much space and life and beuty i realise that anything i think, feel, do really is so small in comparison to everything else. what are my problems held up to the beity of bright red leaves blowing in the wind, or clear sttreams, or huge green feilds, or techinicolor blue skys. its grounding, you know? i think ive decided to make it a point to hike at least twice a week untill it becomes absolutly impossibe to do so. like my new meditation or something.
ah. anyways tonight i plan to go see "saw" after i finish an english paper. im exited. talked to chris for a while today. miss. and talked to kevin for a bit too. miss also. sigh. im thinking im not gonna be able to make it home again untill thanksgiving. wich is ok i guess but i miss it. weirdly more than anything i miss christie hoffman and sitting on kevins tractor. i dont know why. but i plan to hit up both over thanksgiving break. what what. love to everyone who remebers to smile sometimes. even if its in a country where we have no say.
xo
bush won. wich blows. id like to get out of the country. sadly im at the point were i am ashamed to be an american. i dont want to have to be ashamed of who i am or where im from. so things need to change or i need to leave.
on a lighter note i skipped my classes today and went for a really long amazing hike. i havent been on a good hike like that for a while. i needed it. it was amazing outside today. not too warm, not too cold. the trees here are the most mind blowing colors. it put me in a much better mood than i started out at this morning. i dunno i guess i just feel like im loosing my sence of who exactly i am, and thats all ive ever had is a good sence of myself. but im surrounded by college, treated like some sheep. stuck in a cell and overwhelmed with school work. dont get me wrong, i love to learn and i love my classes. but it hasnt been giving me the time to read and write and hike. thats why i took the day off today, i was getting depressed to the point where i was over my head. but today helped a lot. i feel like i got back in touch with myself. and i was able to sort some personal shit out that wass diving me insane. i guess its simply that when im surrounded by so much space and life and beuty i realise that anything i think, feel, do really is so small in comparison to everything else. what are my problems held up to the beity of bright red leaves blowing in the wind, or clear sttreams, or huge green feilds, or techinicolor blue skys. its grounding, you know? i think ive decided to make it a point to hike at least twice a week untill it becomes absolutly impossibe to do so. like my new meditation or something.
ah. anyways tonight i plan to go see "saw" after i finish an english paper. im exited. talked to chris for a while today. miss. and talked to kevin for a bit too. miss also. sigh. im thinking im not gonna be able to make it home again untill thanksgiving. wich is ok i guess but i miss it. weirdly more than anything i miss christie hoffman and sitting on kevins tractor. i dont know why. but i plan to hit up both over thanksgiving break. what what. love to everyone who remebers to smile sometimes. even if its in a country where we have no say.
xo