Sometimes, there's just not enough profanity in the world

Jul 11, 2011 07:55

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

A little context for you.
I was in a relationship with a guy for a year. It got way out of hand because he was really clingly and pushing for a commitment, and because of my own messed up personal reasons (including, but not limited to, my parents' messy divorce) I encouraged him, rather than telling him to back off.

When I finally realised things had gotten out of hand, and I had been deluding myself, I broke it off. That would be a few weeks after Easter of this year.
I returned home. He took up pretty much e-stalking me.

Now, I'm aware that, as the dump-er, I don't have much ground for sympathy, but if you see it from my side of things, i was just as upset about having to hurt him as he was about being hurt. And the messed up personal shit was still going on, so I was already pretty emotionally vulnerable. Having my ex manically trying to be uber-friendly (commenting on every single facebook update, twitter post, forum comment, texting my cell, my landline, and my mum's cell) wasn't helping things.

I toild him, in no uncertain terms, that he was making it harder for both of us, and had effectively pissed me off and alienated me. I no longer wanted to be his friend, and if he wanted something productive to come out of the break up, he should just back off until I felt like I was ready to talk to him in a calm and controlled manner. I even stopped posting on the forum we both met on.

Jump forward a couple of months, and I start to miss that forum, so I make up a new account and announce my return. Has he learned from his mistakes?
Has. He. Shit.
Every facebook update, forum comment, twitter update... even my deviantArt page, which he would have to actively seek out. This is literally the only place I can post about it, because it's the only place on the internet I have that he doesn't know about it. If he does find this, it means he's googled my email adress, or searched through my ff.net account. E-stalked, basically.

I'm sorry, but what the fuck? What the actual fuck? What is he actually hoping to achieve; that I'll jump up and say "wow, now I know that you can be an annoying little piss-tard, that only makes me want you more"? When I broke up with him, I told him he'd become a very dear friend and I wanted him to be a part of my life.
This?

FRIENDS DON'T DO THIS.

PSYCHOPATHS DO THIS.

I am so done.

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