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Ok. That last post was unnecessarily dramatic.
These past two weeks were the first time that I've ever worked in a real, professional shop. The degree of specialization of everyone's role in the shop was nothing like I had ever seen before. There was one person who only cut fabric, another person who only dyed fabric, another person who only went shopping, and so on. There was nothing that I could possibly see myself doing day in and day out for 8 hours a day full time.
It really made me realize that I like the entire process of costuming- from design concept to finished product. Which then made me realize that if I really pursued costume design, I wouldn't want to be at the top of my profession. I didn't see a designer the whole time I was there, and so I feel like at that level designers are mostly visual artists, which doesn't really interest me either.
I think I'd actually rather just be the "costume person" for something really low-budget....most likely with little thanks and low pay....but aren't I more ambitious than that?
This certainly makes me feel ambivalent about the Juilliard internship. Which I guess is a good thing, considering how low my chances are of even being accepted.
It's also made me think a lot about what made me happy at Trinity- the liberal arts theater and dance major, the perfect balance of physical and mental exertion and satisfaction. Have I been too optimistic about finding that kind of satisfaction in the "real world"?
I don't want to work in an office and sit in front of a computer day in and day out and watch my body turn into mush.
I don't want to be on my feet or work with my hands day in and day out and watch my brain turn into mush.
So I guess this post ends the same way the last one did....what am I supposed to be when I grow up?
These past two weeks were the first time that I've ever worked in a real, professional shop. The degree of specialization of everyone's role in the shop was nothing like I had ever seen before. There was one person who only cut fabric, another person who only dyed fabric, another person who only went shopping, and so on. There was nothing that I could possibly see myself doing day in and day out for 8 hours a day full time.
It really made me realize that I like the entire process of costuming- from design concept to finished product. Which then made me realize that if I really pursued costume design, I wouldn't want to be at the top of my profession. I didn't see a designer the whole time I was there, and so I feel like at that level designers are mostly visual artists, which doesn't really interest me either.
I think I'd actually rather just be the "costume person" for something really low-budget....most likely with little thanks and low pay....but aren't I more ambitious than that?
This certainly makes me feel ambivalent about the Juilliard internship. Which I guess is a good thing, considering how low my chances are of even being accepted.
It's also made me think a lot about what made me happy at Trinity- the liberal arts theater and dance major, the perfect balance of physical and mental exertion and satisfaction. Have I been too optimistic about finding that kind of satisfaction in the "real world"?
I don't want to work in an office and sit in front of a computer day in and day out and watch my body turn into mush.
I don't want to be on my feet or work with my hands day in and day out and watch my brain turn into mush.
So I guess this post ends the same way the last one did....what am I supposed to be when I grow up?