Yup!
So, yea. Things sure have there ups and downs. I am so tired, lonely, bored, exhausted, worried, and just flat out annoyed by my casual lifestyle. I want to run away from here. this bothers me, i am a person who cannot handle a regular, nuttin new kind of lifestyle. I'm not neccesarily depressed persay. i just need to be free for awhile. i'm tired. tired of many things. i'm tired of being kicked around by friends, i'm tired of school and getting nagged about it sooo much, i'm tired of my family NEVER being here. i'm tired of people around me hurting, or making dumb decisions. i feel like i have no influence on people's lives anymore. and as much as i try to get people to perk up, or to get people to make better decisions for themselves, i seem to find it a lost cause. why i try i will never know. Many people are fake, they want to be something they're not, or something more than what they need to be. Sooo many people want to be "cool", or have more friends, or look better, or please more people, or search for love in wrong places. THERE IS ONLY ONE THING IN LIFE THAT REALLY MATTERS! such a simple thing too......God. the only thing that really allows me to get up and go another day is the thought that a miracle can happen, that i can change things through the blessings of God, and that maybe if i just keep hoping and praying more and more, that things will get better. as corny as it sounds, all people need to do is love each other. (thank you for reading)