you see things. you keep quiet about them. and you understand.
Today was definitely an "If you're not in the TSSG don't talk to me" kind of day.
Work blew it out the asshole.
Amy (the one I work with) yelled at me.
I was very upset.
Upset enough that Victoria talked to me after work for about a half hour.
She helped a lot.
I didn't react as badly to the unpleasantness of getting yelled at as I used to, however my thought process still needs a definite reality check.
I'm glad that I can see a bad day for what it is now instead of it being the end of the world. It's a bad day. Tomorrow will be another day. I'll go to bed, I'll get some freaking sleep (something I was running without much of today, making it far worse), and I'll wake up and feel better.
Things happen for a reason, at certain times for a reason. I'm sure of this.
It's nearing the time for me to leave Starbucks. It just is.
But there's a few things I have to learn first.
I haven't written an entry in this format since the days of my using.
I don't know why I'm doing it now, except it's easier to jump from one thought to the next when my mind is racing. It's not necessary to make paragraphs flow, so I can just say exactly what's on my mind that much quicker.
I don't think I'll do this often though. But it's good for nights I'm so freaking exhausted I can barely remember my name.
I think it's time for bed.
I love my bed.
Work blew it out the asshole.
Amy (the one I work with) yelled at me.
I was very upset.
Upset enough that Victoria talked to me after work for about a half hour.
She helped a lot.
I didn't react as badly to the unpleasantness of getting yelled at as I used to, however my thought process still needs a definite reality check.
I'm glad that I can see a bad day for what it is now instead of it being the end of the world. It's a bad day. Tomorrow will be another day. I'll go to bed, I'll get some freaking sleep (something I was running without much of today, making it far worse), and I'll wake up and feel better.
Things happen for a reason, at certain times for a reason. I'm sure of this.
It's nearing the time for me to leave Starbucks. It just is.
But there's a few things I have to learn first.
I haven't written an entry in this format since the days of my using.
I don't know why I'm doing it now, except it's easier to jump from one thought to the next when my mind is racing. It's not necessary to make paragraphs flow, so I can just say exactly what's on my mind that much quicker.
I don't think I'll do this often though. But it's good for nights I'm so freaking exhausted I can barely remember my name.
I think it's time for bed.
I love my bed.