Hampshire update
so ive been here for about two weeks and have a had a slew of good experiences. Not unexpectedly, i also have some concerns ad worries. Being that i'm socially inept, making friends is somewhat of a task. I do have people i hang out with but its hard for me to communicate and really open up. that is when the paranoia sets in. i fear that im missing out, i at lke a weirdo and so on. aditionally, more stress was added once classes started up. for the most part, i enjoy my classes but with one exception, language and the mind
it seemed ineresting but after finding out what it really is im not sure if i like it. it basically a psychology class and with that comes a whole new vocabulary. also, there are very intelligent and knowledgeable people in the class and due to that the discussions go over my head and im left there silent. i took a psych clas in high school and really didnt like it so encountering something similar that is disheartening.
so with one tough class and the social poblem weighing down on me i began to feel overwhelmed and somewhat unhappy. i can still drop the class and pick up a new one but the ones available dont interest me. one night as i was searching though the available courses i came across a co-curricular class called beginning kyudo.
kyudo, the way of the bow, is a type of japanese mediation in which the participant focuses on the tools of the trade (bow and arrow) and the eventual release to the target. i signed up and went to my first meeting today. it was pretty intense. It required a lot of form and a lot of concentration and given that the class has met two times prior to today i had to learn rather quickly. after about an hour and half of learning the coordinations leading up to the actual release, i left feeling grounded. i rode my bike to the hampshire tree and felt this great sense of relaxation and was able to take in the magnificent sight of the sunlight reflecting off the swaying grass, the immensity of the sky and clouds and the clam, old and thick hampshire tree.
Hawks have always seemed to pop into my view and the most random and unexpected times. they bring me hope and clam me. earlier today as i was stressing out, i realized that i havnt seen one in a while. actually since i first arrived at hampshire. after my bike ride feeling wonderful, i was pleased to see a hawk not too far off in the distance and then hearing the call of one in another direction, looked up to see two more. it was a comforting sight, a sign of being on the right path.
it seemed ineresting but after finding out what it really is im not sure if i like it. it basically a psychology class and with that comes a whole new vocabulary. also, there are very intelligent and knowledgeable people in the class and due to that the discussions go over my head and im left there silent. i took a psych clas in high school and really didnt like it so encountering something similar that is disheartening.
so with one tough class and the social poblem weighing down on me i began to feel overwhelmed and somewhat unhappy. i can still drop the class and pick up a new one but the ones available dont interest me. one night as i was searching though the available courses i came across a co-curricular class called beginning kyudo.
kyudo, the way of the bow, is a type of japanese mediation in which the participant focuses on the tools of the trade (bow and arrow) and the eventual release to the target. i signed up and went to my first meeting today. it was pretty intense. It required a lot of form and a lot of concentration and given that the class has met two times prior to today i had to learn rather quickly. after about an hour and half of learning the coordinations leading up to the actual release, i left feeling grounded. i rode my bike to the hampshire tree and felt this great sense of relaxation and was able to take in the magnificent sight of the sunlight reflecting off the swaying grass, the immensity of the sky and clouds and the clam, old and thick hampshire tree.
Hawks have always seemed to pop into my view and the most random and unexpected times. they bring me hope and clam me. earlier today as i was stressing out, i realized that i havnt seen one in a while. actually since i first arrived at hampshire. after my bike ride feeling wonderful, i was pleased to see a hawk not too far off in the distance and then hearing the call of one in another direction, looked up to see two more. it was a comforting sight, a sign of being on the right path.