anatomy of a breakdown
Title: anatomy of a breakdown
Rating: g
Genre: angst
Length: drabble
Summary: All I see are reasons to leave.
My heart does not soar when I see you anymore. Instead, it sinks like that one time when I was twelve and they said we needed to vacate the house because we could not pay the bills.
There are shadows in the rainfall that kiss the truth into my mouth, and I wish, I wish I could keep it to myself, but I can't. Morning comes and I look through the drawers, through old photo albums, through old journals and gifts and I try to find a reason to stay. I am looking for a way to defy gravity, but Newton's Law is absolute. I see the cracks in the walls and the chinks in the furniture, the scar on your forehead from that one time we both pretend we forgot - and all I see are reasons to leave.
The sun is blazing outside but there are goosebumps on my arms.
You look at me tired, resigned, and I count one, two, before you let out a sigh and turn your head away, take a sip from your mug, and I hope your coffee tastes as bitter as I feel.
This is the anatomy of a breakdown.