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cosmic_ikahana

The Beast Inside

May 29, 2011 21:14

Man, Depression, with a BIG D and a little i, is a beast. I've been dealing with it for at least a decade, probably longer than that if I were to really analyze it. A good two decades at least. I've tried different medications with various success, but often with doubt that we humans should be medicating ourselves for something like this. Still ( Read more... )

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el_jefe59 May 30 2011, 06:08:11 UTC

I have been fighting depression for several decades, so I can empathize, Jeff. I wish I had some good advice, but I don't really have a handle on my situation either.

But I just want you to know I am sending good thoughts your way. It might not help but at least it can't hurt.

Thanks cosmic_ikahana May 30 2011, 23:08:53 UTC

Thank you Jeff. And good thoughts for you as well. It helps to know I'm not the only one, but I wish it wasn't either of us.

Re: Thanks el_jefe59 May 30 2011, 23:28:51 UTC

I wish the same thing, Jeff.

bitterlawngnome May 30 2011, 13:38:38 UTC

The last decade has been an exercise in having my ego-identification blown up over and over ... everything I thought was important or valued or likeable about me, BLAM. And part of that has been me thinking I've got the (non)monogamy thing sorted out. I totally don't. But as a result of the same process I don't think anyone else does, either; I watch people who claim to have it all figured out and I can see the cracks in their wall of defences.

Uncertainty is the new certainty.

For Certainty cosmic_ikahana May 30 2011, 23:13:28 UTC

We need to talk. Seriously.

Yeah, I've seen the people who think they have it all figured out too, and I have always thought the best policy is to stay out of other folks' biz on this one. I don't think there is a right or wrong way. But I've seen so many fireworks and have tried to learn from those in figuring out what would work for me (and therefore, us - at least in part). Soon as I think I've figured it out, I'll change my mind again - I know that.

Took me 50 some years just to admit that "Yeah, men are competitive". Always wanted to believe that was a stereotype and was something we were forced into. I don't believe that anymore. I think competition can be healthy, but I think it surfaces in ways where it needs to checked a little. Or at least acknowledged.

I thought I'd be smarter by now. I feel I get dumber every day.