New love 2018-2020
Yeah.. It was a really long time ago I had a new love.
But it slowly grown when I was part on this Foto group I was with.
There was this guy who was a caretaker for a guy on a wheelchair.
He and I talked with each other and got to know each other little by little because we were in this group. It all began when he suddenly hugged me when we the group went to a lake and it was warm and everything.
The hug really surprised me. But still he had done subtle moves before like waiting for me when I was taking picture and if I asked anything he will reply. The hugging became more. After that hug in the lake beach. When it was warm and he wanted to try to see how the water was. And dived in and got cold. I was worry about him because he was really cold. And it was on that day he first hugged me. Later down the line he has hugged me of and on.
Wherever we have this group meeting. And the second real hug was when we had a exhibition on our fotos. Called the four elements
There out of nowhere while smiling to each other looking at the fotos on the frame. He hugged me again. And that too took me by surprise. Then later when I went to a little cafe there to rest he gave a back hug and I was worried that it was something the matter with him. And I couldn't remember what he said there because the girl working on the cafe interrupted us and asked if we were dating.
Hence he said that we were only just friend just now.
And later on the cafes couch he hugged me again and just wanted to be close with me. And held my hands and all. That day made me blush and feel very happy at the same time. Now last year on December. He hugged me for the fourth time
(Third was on sep something while taking photos outside. He just wanted to asked how I was) The fourth hug was after we talked a bit and I asked what kind of type of personality he liked.
And he said he like them kind and would love them to like pets. Because he will someday get himself a dog. He also asked what type I was looking for. And we really had a small conversation there. That was the last talk I had with him. Until now.
Out of nowhere he sms me wondering How well I am and if I was home in my gavle apartment. And of course I was not and I got help by my sister how to post back to him. Because this was soooooo out of the blue for me. It did make me happy that for the first time he sms me and also wanted to see if we could maybe meet or something. Still to bad I will not be around gavle anymore. And we will never meet or have anything with each other anymore. So I sms back that I wish them luck in life. And he didn't sms back because I think of what I posted. We do not know each other or close enough to talk more than this short conversation. So I guess this was just it. Still I'm a bit sad it couldn't turn out a little more then a small fling of playful love..I will kind of miss him. But I don't know if in his mind and way if he wanted more or had any feelings towards me to turn it into more.
We will have to live to much far away to each other if there was something. Or if we would like something to happen or to make a relationship out of it.
But I don't think it wasn't meant to be...
I kinda wish it though..
But getting a apartment out of luck might be kind of sign that it was meant for me to leave gavle and live closer to my family.
He may be meant to be with someone else in the end
Well this is a small look on how my 2020 year has been.
I got a new name on June 23 and got a New apartment on 9 july moving in Sep 1
My crush sms me for the first time 11 july
I am grateful and really thankful for the luck I am getting right now.
Thank you universe and all the mystical power and energy all around me.
Thank you Holy God, Thank you Son of god Holy Jesus Christ for this awesome happiness and luck that are coming my way. It can't get any better than this.
I'm so happy and sad in the same time.
Thank you..