Is this how 20 is supposed to feel?
Holy shit.
I've gone insane, like legally or something. Yesterday I hooked up with guy B...and again today. And then I went out for dinner straight after with guy A and cuddled and watched a movie. I'm like dying inside. If I could take guy A and put ihs brain and personality and his care for me into guy B's body, and add a touch of guy B's willingness to do...I'd be in fucking heaven-both literally and figuratively. But...perhaps the best thing for me to do would be to not do anything with either and just be on my own like usual cause thats what I am good at. All this intense stuff makes me wanna die, and for some reason I don't think thats how it's supposed to be. Maybe Im just in the wrong situations? Or maybe I am supposed to be a nun? No way, Im way to horny for that haha.
All I know is that I need to get it together. Funny too cause I've always had to pick up the pieces all my life. I'm totally used falling apart and then putting myself back together. Only this time it seems so much harder, like almost impossible. Without like a clear view of my goal ahead of me Im freaking out. FUCK. Ok thats enough thinking for tonight. Time for some aqua teen.
I've gone insane, like legally or something. Yesterday I hooked up with guy B...and again today. And then I went out for dinner straight after with guy A and cuddled and watched a movie. I'm like dying inside. If I could take guy A and put ihs brain and personality and his care for me into guy B's body, and add a touch of guy B's willingness to do...I'd be in fucking heaven-both literally and figuratively. But...perhaps the best thing for me to do would be to not do anything with either and just be on my own like usual cause thats what I am good at. All this intense stuff makes me wanna die, and for some reason I don't think thats how it's supposed to be. Maybe Im just in the wrong situations? Or maybe I am supposed to be a nun? No way, Im way to horny for that haha.
All I know is that I need to get it together. Funny too cause I've always had to pick up the pieces all my life. I'm totally used falling apart and then putting myself back together. Only this time it seems so much harder, like almost impossible. Without like a clear view of my goal ahead of me Im freaking out. FUCK. Ok thats enough thinking for tonight. Time for some aqua teen.