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i've been jamming out on my trumpet again.
its great playing again.
LOVE it.
i get to see my steven next week.
family get together for easter.
should be fun.
i've felt happy lately.
which is different for me.
and i love that feeling.
I've realised, michael jacksons music makes me giddy.
i discovered im realllly good at 50's style dancing.
my mind has been racing though.
and my nights have been run down by dreams.
terrible terrible dreams
about tom.
even in my dreams he gets to me.
and it sucks arse
im listening to Trapped IN the Closet
its so messed up. on so many levels
i've been writing all my thoughts down lately.
i still cant remember anything.
i hate my memory problem.
i've been reading into astral projection
it sounds amazing, im going to try to start practicing it.
it should help me rid my dreams of tom.
and rid me of my fear of him.
i just have to figure out how.
i've been looking up psych stuff too.
i've learned that maybe once i clear my mind, and get rid of all of the burdens dragging me down, my memory should get better.
GED testing has been going good.
im nervous about math though.
its so difficult.
and i suck at math, so that adds stress.
but i think i'll be ok.
i have so many thoughts running through my head.
im starting to feel really hot...
and nauteous(sp?)
so i think im going to lay down
so i dont die.
LOLZ
3months.
its great playing again.
LOVE it.
i get to see my steven next week.
family get together for easter.
should be fun.
i've felt happy lately.
which is different for me.
and i love that feeling.
I've realised, michael jacksons music makes me giddy.
i discovered im realllly good at 50's style dancing.
my mind has been racing though.
and my nights have been run down by dreams.
terrible terrible dreams
about tom.
even in my dreams he gets to me.
and it sucks arse
im listening to Trapped IN the Closet
its so messed up. on so many levels
i've been writing all my thoughts down lately.
i still cant remember anything.
i hate my memory problem.
i've been reading into astral projection
it sounds amazing, im going to try to start practicing it.
it should help me rid my dreams of tom.
and rid me of my fear of him.
i just have to figure out how.
i've been looking up psych stuff too.
i've learned that maybe once i clear my mind, and get rid of all of the burdens dragging me down, my memory should get better.
GED testing has been going good.
im nervous about math though.
its so difficult.
and i suck at math, so that adds stress.
but i think i'll be ok.
i have so many thoughts running through my head.
im starting to feel really hot...
and nauteous(sp?)
so i think im going to lay down
so i dont die.
LOLZ
3months.