sad...angry...heartbroken
I guess me getting my heart broken is a new hobby for me...i was stupid to think that anything would change w/ him...the horrible part about it all is that i know he wants to be w/ me and i know he thinks about me all the time.He just wont show that very often.Everything was fine for a little while and now im back to crying myself to sleep every night.Its horrible that before i get in bed i make sure to have a tissue in my hand because i know im going to cry so much that i soak my pillow w/ my tears.Its really the worst thing in the world to sit and think that nothing you ever do will make you feel better...i know its not true...but in the moment its all i think about.He makes no effort...we agreed to try...and now i see that hes not holding up his end this relationship...or w/e you want to call it.I dont know what more i can say or do.Im just so tired and i cant do it anymore...im about to give up:(Going to talk to my bestest...bye for now