I never thought I'd say this..
I'd like to quit working and go to school full time. I want to get through all my classes and get my degree as soon as possible. Seriously. I'm going to take summer classes and i wish i could pick up another class this semester.. ugh.. i need this all to get faster. The faster I finish school the faster I can move home to my mom and my grandmother. I wish there was a school i liked close to home, that would be nice. I have a 5 year plan. I don't think it's ryan's 5 year plan though.. we probably need to work that out. I want to get through school and start teaching in Gas City or a surrounding area so that I can move home. I'm sick of being away from my grandma. I wanted to just drive up today.. the weather was nice.. but i worked all day. oh about work: Trader's Point 10029 can SUCK IT. DNW a manager that doesn't care about her employees. DNW the jerk baristas. DNW everything to be my fault when it's not. I want out of there. I don't want to leave the company. just that store. The stress is POINTLESS.. and it's about stuff that isn't my fault at all.. its the company changes and new manager that have caused this.. i feel that i'm going to voice my opinion to the DM soon, but i need to organize my thoughts first. i just can't handle that store anymore.. and those opening shifts kill me. it's not even about the time i have to be there.. or the business that we get or the fast pace.. some of the people on the morning shift MAKE ME SO NERVOUS. like ugh. i almost cry every morning. I want to go to school. I am LOVING school. yea, its hard.. and i have to drive further than i've had to drive for anything else i've ever done.. i have homework and sometimes i forget to do things but really, i love school. i need to get through my classes as soon as i can. I don't want to move downtown, honestly. But i don't want to be far away from my school because the driving is crazy.. i don't know if we should get a house now and then get another one when we move.. but that would be pointless.. maybe we should just rent until we move to gas city.. but i dont want an apartment.. maybe we can rent a nice house? doubt it....
ugh. UGH.
ugh. UGH.