(no subject)
Sometimes you wonder what you are going to do next week...
You think "Hey it would be awesome to hang out at the mall Friday".
But how many times did Timor come to mind when you were thinking about that?
Not nearly enough for me. I was one of those who had been to his house for the first time on sunday, and that felt almost as wrong as his death.
I should have talked to him more, gotten to know him better, played some incubus with him, gone to his house, hacked with his brother, done more for him.
But all I did was hang out with him at school and at RDC parties. What a friend I was. I know he is disagreeing with me right now, but having him gone is almost too much to bear. It makes want to stop living, get out the easy way.
And his mother and brother are hurting more than any of us, so...
...this one doesnt go out for him, it goes out for them, because he would want it that way, and no way else.
You think "Hey it would be awesome to hang out at the mall Friday".
But how many times did Timor come to mind when you were thinking about that?
Not nearly enough for me. I was one of those who had been to his house for the first time on sunday, and that felt almost as wrong as his death.
I should have talked to him more, gotten to know him better, played some incubus with him, gone to his house, hacked with his brother, done more for him.
But all I did was hang out with him at school and at RDC parties. What a friend I was. I know he is disagreeing with me right now, but having him gone is almost too much to bear. It makes want to stop living, get out the easy way.
And his mother and brother are hurting more than any of us, so...
...this one doesnt go out for him, it goes out for them, because he would want it that way, and no way else.