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[cortbo]

I spend more time in this hell hold then at my own house.. it sucks.. well anyways right now jenny is mad at me cuz me and sarah were talkin about if me and mitch hooked up and wendy and D and her and bt how much fun it would be and she got mad so we tried to think of someone for her and now shes just ignoring us.. but w/e cuz i understand what she

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[jjjulick]

im not mad at you or anyone else, its just that everything really sucks and I have lost just about everything...and then hearing you guys say how your gonna be together all the time just makes me feel like shit because everyone is getting to together and leaving me...renee and ranck...and then that seperated me patty her and malorie...and then kyle and sarah which broke my heart because she has just about zero time for me anymore and i cant talk to her about anyhting because kyle is always there...and then it was me bt sarah and mitch for a while and it was cool because we were all friends...and sometimes, alot of the time it was just me bt and sarah but it was still cool because we were all just chill...just bffs...and now bt and sarah like each other...well LOVE each other and its cute and im glad but i feel weird hanging out with them too...not weird but left out i guess...and like with mitch and them...its just like everyone has their own special bond now and im completly of the loop...and like before i at least had pete...like when i was grounded before and like when me and my friends fought...but now...pete hates me...and he doesnt want anything to do with me anymore...and now im grounded and like everyone is hooking up like all of my friends and i have nothing and its not that i dont want you guys to be happy...i just hate when the people i love leave me...and everyone is doing it at the same time...and especially the one person i love the most...i mean yah...i get it...pete did it before and i knew he was going to do it again but we were so good just a week ago so this was sudden, and im used to us fighting but we always always go back becuase we liked each other and we missed each other and now its one sided and im the one with all the pain and hurt and hes happier than hes ever been before and i know that this is over for good this time and i dont know what to do becuase i am grounded so i cant even go have fun with my friends...and i guess im just afraid that when its all said and done...im not going to have anyone left...because nothing is the way it used to be...and everyone has somebody except for me...and i miss being all friends and chillin...because now i feel like no one wants me around...i dont know..its just me being selfish..understood...i am sorry...i just need to work on being alone away from everyone.

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[cortbo]

listen, when you and pete were together there was just me cuz me and aj didnt work out, then megan came here adn me and her became really close friends and now she has justin and me and her hardly hang out cuz shes always tryin to make time for justin and her job and everything and i have softball and everything, and it hink thats why me and damien kinda i dont know but then i didnt have anyone, and im just happy that for once i do, and im not the one always out, always hearing good storys when im trying not to be the bust and talk about how i wish i found someone and everything, im just tryin to be happy i havent been in a while, and then to hear u be mad becuz of this jenny im not like everyone else i still hang out with my friends when ih ave a boyfriend or when i like osmeone or have a think, i will make time with my friends even if its with him or not, i mean mitch is friends with all of my friends which will be alot more easier! i still love ya jenny jo julick and always will...:-(

Re: listen

[jjjulick]

you just dont understand what im trying to say