so i dont update anymore.
i miss when i did. it gave me something to look forward to.
im so bummed and i need to vent:
about half an hour ago, i removed my sternum piercing after 6 months. a week ago i removed my nape piercings after 8 months. both piercers told me the same thing. i am not healthy. i dont look healthy. i dont feel healthy. and the only reason for perfectly healing piercings to suddenly turn ugly is stress. im stressed cuz im unhealthy. i sleep 3 hours a night and work nearly 10 hours every morning, starting at 4:30am. on days off all i do is lie in bed and feel guilty about it, so i decide to go out. have fun. lack of rest leads to some more unhealthy. fuck. did i mention i hardly eat. and when i do i feel gross. i feel the beginnings of a disorder. i take my vitamins, but they make me puke. Fuck! im tired of the stress and the tiredness and the not having any fun.
FUCK.
im so bummed and i need to vent:
about half an hour ago, i removed my sternum piercing after 6 months. a week ago i removed my nape piercings after 8 months. both piercers told me the same thing. i am not healthy. i dont look healthy. i dont feel healthy. and the only reason for perfectly healing piercings to suddenly turn ugly is stress. im stressed cuz im unhealthy. i sleep 3 hours a night and work nearly 10 hours every morning, starting at 4:30am. on days off all i do is lie in bed and feel guilty about it, so i decide to go out. have fun. lack of rest leads to some more unhealthy. fuck. did i mention i hardly eat. and when i do i feel gross. i feel the beginnings of a disorder. i take my vitamins, but they make me puke. Fuck! im tired of the stress and the tiredness and the not having any fun.
FUCK.