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Today, was the first time Ive cried in 3 years.
This stupid slump has been beating the hell out of me; I think, this is a new evolution in my personality. My hatred for people is slowly lifting despite what they do. I think Alison has been having too much of an effect on me. But god damn, shes there for me even though shes only known me for a 2-3 month period, and we havent even hung out alot.
My father is still an ass, my mother knows it and has known it for the longest time. They made a deal when I was 13 to stay together until we were out of the house. People look at my house, a fascade of things collaborated to make this house and these people look like a family. I cant take this anymore No one sees anyone, and when they do theres a feeling of malice toward everyone. I love my mother shes such a hardass but she busts her ass for everyone. My father sits on his ass Drinks beer and on the occasion comes out enough to criticize me. Even though he has been working on the bathroom my mother has to do everything. I hate him with the deepest sincerity, but I have to put on a happy face everyday in order to keep my mother motivated. Im proud of my sister. Despite her being a bitch to me when younger and being my 2nd mother she has my respect forever. Ive gotta get out of this place, but if I leave, I dont know what will happen to my mother.
Alison said I could move in with her, but I think thats just her awsome personality shinning throught again. So, Im gonna go now. Time to drown my antquity with a gallon of vodka.
Dont feel pity please, thats just more depressing. Besides things are improving not getting worse.
This stupid slump has been beating the hell out of me; I think, this is a new evolution in my personality. My hatred for people is slowly lifting despite what they do. I think Alison has been having too much of an effect on me. But god damn, shes there for me even though shes only known me for a 2-3 month period, and we havent even hung out alot.
My father is still an ass, my mother knows it and has known it for the longest time. They made a deal when I was 13 to stay together until we were out of the house. People look at my house, a fascade of things collaborated to make this house and these people look like a family. I cant take this anymore No one sees anyone, and when they do theres a feeling of malice toward everyone. I love my mother shes such a hardass but she busts her ass for everyone. My father sits on his ass Drinks beer and on the occasion comes out enough to criticize me. Even though he has been working on the bathroom my mother has to do everything. I hate him with the deepest sincerity, but I have to put on a happy face everyday in order to keep my mother motivated. Im proud of my sister. Despite her being a bitch to me when younger and being my 2nd mother she has my respect forever. Ive gotta get out of this place, but if I leave, I dont know what will happen to my mother.
Alison said I could move in with her, but I think thats just her awsome personality shinning throught again. So, Im gonna go now. Time to drown my antquity with a gallon of vodka.
Dont feel pity please, thats just more depressing. Besides things are improving not getting worse.