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Nature of the Sean (Not letting go):
I got hypnotised this weekend at the RenFaire... Most people don't remember any of it, the people that participated. But I... I remember it all. I dunno, I kinda question the validity of Hypnosis. Like the guy said, it depends on the person.
But some part of me, the same part of me that stops me from drinking too much, didn't let me fully drop into hypnosis.
Its like I would do everything he said... as long as I wanted to do it. Near the end, he would stomp his feet on the stage and we would have to yell at someone in the front row for pinching us in the butt. Well, I dunno, I just didn't really feel like it. then, later, he said, "Go thank the person that you yelled at and apologize." But I didn't want to talk to that person, instead I ran all the way up to the back and hugged the shit out of Li Li. I didn't realy know how hard I was hugging her, so I guess I was still kinda in the illusion, but it was me controlling me, not him. I didn't really want to thank that girl up front, I wanted to thank Li Li. Just kinda weird. It's this same feeling that keeps me from letting go while drunk and always fights the falling asleep.
The funny part though, is afterwards I was so giddy and giggly sitting next to Li Li, cause... she was just being so nice to me, even while I had been hugging her so hard she almost choked. :-) I was just so happy, cause I mean you can always say, "I'm in love and I trust the other person," but when you're hypnotised and everytime you come out of it not quite knowing what you might've done, and you look up and there is that person you love, looking down, still smiling in her little way... It's real. The love is real suddenly.
Even in my most relaxed state, Li Li's there. Not really a hot blanket that feels good, but if you leave it on, it'll burn you, but more like an air conditioner stabilizing the air in a room to a comfortable temperature. But I'm sure, if I needed a hot blanket, she could be that too. ^_^ *giggles* But yeah, the point is, I could see myself for a moment there, and I was happy in that reflection. Simple Seanie Tee.
I got hypnotised this weekend at the RenFaire... Most people don't remember any of it, the people that participated. But I... I remember it all. I dunno, I kinda question the validity of Hypnosis. Like the guy said, it depends on the person.
But some part of me, the same part of me that stops me from drinking too much, didn't let me fully drop into hypnosis.
Its like I would do everything he said... as long as I wanted to do it. Near the end, he would stomp his feet on the stage and we would have to yell at someone in the front row for pinching us in the butt. Well, I dunno, I just didn't really feel like it. then, later, he said, "Go thank the person that you yelled at and apologize." But I didn't want to talk to that person, instead I ran all the way up to the back and hugged the shit out of Li Li. I didn't realy know how hard I was hugging her, so I guess I was still kinda in the illusion, but it was me controlling me, not him. I didn't really want to thank that girl up front, I wanted to thank Li Li. Just kinda weird. It's this same feeling that keeps me from letting go while drunk and always fights the falling asleep.
The funny part though, is afterwards I was so giddy and giggly sitting next to Li Li, cause... she was just being so nice to me, even while I had been hugging her so hard she almost choked. :-) I was just so happy, cause I mean you can always say, "I'm in love and I trust the other person," but when you're hypnotised and everytime you come out of it not quite knowing what you might've done, and you look up and there is that person you love, looking down, still smiling in her little way... It's real. The love is real suddenly.
Even in my most relaxed state, Li Li's there. Not really a hot blanket that feels good, but if you leave it on, it'll burn you, but more like an air conditioner stabilizing the air in a room to a comfortable temperature. But I'm sure, if I needed a hot blanket, she could be that too. ^_^ *giggles* But yeah, the point is, I could see myself for a moment there, and I was happy in that reflection. Simple Seanie Tee.