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we had a 'progressive' party last night.. there were different themes in every room and we 'progressed' from room to room.. one room had everyone sit in a circle and massage the person to the left and then to the right.. for one room, we had to take most of our clothes off before entering.. and we entered to discover a giant inflatable pool filled with warm water.. i think there were 15-20 people in it.. i woke up an hour or so ago in the third floor hallway of black elk.. sans clothes.. it took me a long time to write this.. or maybe it seems that way.. i cant say for sure.. our room was mellow.. burning sage, candles, fresh raw juice.. my favorite juice was apples, beets, and ginger.. i prefer it without carrot.. fortunately there were leftovers and i was able to drink that this mornig.. helped a lot.. plus peppermint tea.. and i have an extra pack in my back pocket.. and fortunately when i took off my pants to go to the pool, i put them far away in th ebasement--which meant ---- >> clean pants in the morning.. im at work right now.. i smell vomit but i ran into a friend on the street and she didn't smell anything.. so perhaps its in my nasal cavaties.. i think that i threw up a lot.. i honestly dont remember.. made out with gabe.. sort of.. too rushed.. too drunken.. but there was tongue.. so i guess i go on the kissing chart.. i want to kiss a woman as well.. had a theory yesterday.. that im more intimidated by women, more afraid to show affection towards them, so i show it towards males more.. but in a lot of ways, i think that im more attracted to women.. differencse and such.. yknow?? but i feel that the three person relationship idea i had is the best one.. that would be wonderful.. a full relationship with walking, sunrise watching, snuggling, holding, talking, tea drinking, smiling, kissing.. three people.. it feels right to me.. less isolating than a two pers0n relationship..

i live in a magical place filled with magical people..