The little idiot on my shoulder
Ok....
Well I have an idiot on my shoulder. This little person is seriously pissing me off. I know what I have to do. I know that if I don't do this, I will get hurt over and over again.
But then that idiot on my shoulder starts talking again.
"You can't let go! This is your life. Just accept it. Besides, you'll never find another person like him."
I try to cover him up with a pillow, but I can't smother him.
I try to flood him with my tears, but he rides the waves with ease.
I try to block him out with screams, but his voice continues, louder now.
"You have not seen it with your own eyes. What if it's not true? Don't make the biggest mistake of your life. You know he loves you. And anyway, if something did happen, it's all your fault. You're not good enough."
I keep crying, keep fighting. But in the end it's useless.
He has won again.
Well I have an idiot on my shoulder. This little person is seriously pissing me off. I know what I have to do. I know that if I don't do this, I will get hurt over and over again.
But then that idiot on my shoulder starts talking again.
"You can't let go! This is your life. Just accept it. Besides, you'll never find another person like him."
I try to cover him up with a pillow, but I can't smother him.
I try to flood him with my tears, but he rides the waves with ease.
I try to block him out with screams, but his voice continues, louder now.
"You have not seen it with your own eyes. What if it's not true? Don't make the biggest mistake of your life. You know he loves you. And anyway, if something did happen, it's all your fault. You're not good enough."
I keep crying, keep fighting. But in the end it's useless.
He has won again.