Goddamn Rollercoaster Off It's Tracks
Well last night and most of today I got to hang out with Jaime, Brilla, and Sean, which really made my week worth sitting through. We had a lot of fun and they just generally cheered me up. THose three are truely great friends. I wish I could of gone with them to see people in Santa Cruz, but I was a dingwat and made plans to see Lauren, who decided she'd rather just sleep when she got home today. Which was a big downer, because I know I won't get to see her much tommorow. So basically I got screwed. And when Lauren called I got REALLY depressed REALLY fast. I just felt this sort of wave of numb wash over me. It was creepy, but i suppose i'm used to it. Probably waasn't good that I forgot to take my meds today. It feels weak that I need a silly little pill to keep me from hurting myself. But Jessica just called and sang me happy birthday even though my birthday is tommorow, it cheered me up a little to hear her. And tommorow I get to hear John Scofield (jazz guitarist, sounds ok). And Sunday I get to play guitar with my uncle IN sacramento and prove my worth after all he's done to help me along my music "career". Things are just crazy.