ORLY?!
My livejournal has been dead for quite some time now. I guess the honest truth being that I well and er, truly do not feel any affiliation with KPOP and its do-stalk action counterpart. Shocking isn't it? I'd like to say its because Jaebeom left (though that may partly be the reason) but it would be pretty strange if I were to give up KPOP completely just for him (when I have claimed in the past to love so many other men of Korea so much more like the guy that has largely dominated most of my graphics here).
Now that most of the initial shock has probably washed over I'm sure what everybody wants to know is WHY OH WHY. The reason being, I do not know either. I don't know if I just woke up and realised I wanted to spend a bit more time being more absorbed into my own life rather than the lives of others or it was a gradual feeling. I think I'm in a place in my life right now where there are just too many things to see and do out in the world than to just be permanently glued to gossip and news. I hope I don't come across as a high nosed bletch to anyone, I just think coming to terms with it all and addressing it head on might help clear the air. I do still do the occasional catch up on allkpop.com but nowadays not being the first to see Seung Ri's latest photos or Woo Young's most recent skit doesn't matter as much any more.
My other obligations such as to the forum I dedicated quite a fair bit of time that is Illustrious Designs has also been taking the back seat. If any of you guys at IF are reading this now I'm really sorry. I actually haven't even been practising graphics anymore. I will go over there soon to either be on an indefinite hiatus or just plain retire, it really isn't appropriate to still hold the title of an active mod when I'm not as you guys still pour your all into it. (Kitty I love you and I'm so so sorry)
I'm also (finally) in my final year at high school, or well pretty much of it. We've started Year 12 at school. It's already quite a drag but I want to give it my best. I've been inspired a lot by my friends in Malaysia who I see much less now but each time I do it seems like they've all matured so much. I want to focus purely on my studies for now so that the past 12 years haven't gone to waste. I'm sure most of you are able to relate.
I guess a lot of things have been hitting me lately. The reality of approaching 18 in more or less three months and the HSC noose looming over my head to begin with. I've wasted a lot of time already so now it's time to get going. I don't know what will happen to my livejournal. I haven't been much of a user on it to be perfectly straight so I don't think I will miss it as much. I might post occasionally but then again it will all be about my life which I'm still debating whether I should lock or not. Because I doubt most of you would be interested in reading about my life all the time (as fascinatingly fascinating as it is sometimes *eyerolls*) and also to my surprise and slight embarrassment some of my friends from back home do actually read this page. They might be slightly more interested (at least I hope) but if I were to lock it then they wouldn't be able to. See my dilemma? Well I'll figure it out sooner or later. Feel free to unfriend me or un-whatever me because I would just be taking up space on what is probably an extremely lengthy f-list.
I can't think of anything else to say right now but even if I did later I probably would not be bothered to edit this anyway. Here's to hoping LJ doesn't delete all my text again. I am finding absolute solace and bliss in rediscovering old flames again. Hello Blink and Audioslave.
Now that most of the initial shock has probably washed over I'm sure what everybody wants to know is WHY OH WHY. The reason being, I do not know either. I don't know if I just woke up and realised I wanted to spend a bit more time being more absorbed into my own life rather than the lives of others or it was a gradual feeling. I think I'm in a place in my life right now where there are just too many things to see and do out in the world than to just be permanently glued to gossip and news. I hope I don't come across as a high nosed bletch to anyone, I just think coming to terms with it all and addressing it head on might help clear the air. I do still do the occasional catch up on allkpop.com but nowadays not being the first to see Seung Ri's latest photos or Woo Young's most recent skit doesn't matter as much any more.
My other obligations such as to the forum I dedicated quite a fair bit of time that is Illustrious Designs has also been taking the back seat. If any of you guys at IF are reading this now I'm really sorry. I actually haven't even been practising graphics anymore. I will go over there soon to either be on an indefinite hiatus or just plain retire, it really isn't appropriate to still hold the title of an active mod when I'm not as you guys still pour your all into it. (Kitty I love you and I'm so so sorry)
I'm also (finally) in my final year at high school, or well pretty much of it. We've started Year 12 at school. It's already quite a drag but I want to give it my best. I've been inspired a lot by my friends in Malaysia who I see much less now but each time I do it seems like they've all matured so much. I want to focus purely on my studies for now so that the past 12 years haven't gone to waste. I'm sure most of you are able to relate.
I guess a lot of things have been hitting me lately. The reality of approaching 18 in more or less three months and the HSC noose looming over my head to begin with. I've wasted a lot of time already so now it's time to get going. I don't know what will happen to my livejournal. I haven't been much of a user on it to be perfectly straight so I don't think I will miss it as much. I might post occasionally but then again it will all be about my life which I'm still debating whether I should lock or not. Because I doubt most of you would be interested in reading about my life all the time (as fascinatingly fascinating as it is sometimes *eyerolls*) and also to my surprise and slight embarrassment some of my friends from back home do actually read this page. They might be slightly more interested (at least I hope) but if I were to lock it then they wouldn't be able to. See my dilemma? Well I'll figure it out sooner or later. Feel free to unfriend me or un-whatever me because I would just be taking up space on what is probably an extremely lengthy f-list.
I can't think of anything else to say right now but even if I did later I probably would not be bothered to edit this anyway. Here's to hoping LJ doesn't delete all my text again. I am finding absolute solace and bliss in rediscovering old flames again. Hello Blink and Audioslave.