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I've been feeling weird lately. I've been affected pretty deeply by some deaths of people that I hardly knew-acquaintances. Or I don't know if deeply affected describes it well-to me death seems like a shallow pit that just ends in abrupt darkness. As much as I distrust any religion, I feel like I need to understand or come to terms with mortality. I don't know, I might just be unbalanced because I haven't exercised thanks to the downpours of rain 24/7!
I've also been feeling out of place-within my family, my few groups of friends, just in general. And I don't think it's just socially, it bigger than that. I feel like I don't connect to people. The worst part of it is that I don't really feel a huge need to connect or reconnect with people. I'm pretty content being solo. I don't know if that means something is wrong with me or what, because it seems to be pretty opposite to everyone else.
I'm just really confused right now. I don't think my qualms will be quieted soon, I feel like my life has to change a good deal first. I guess I'll see.
I've also been feeling out of place-within my family, my few groups of friends, just in general. And I don't think it's just socially, it bigger than that. I feel like I don't connect to people. The worst part of it is that I don't really feel a huge need to connect or reconnect with people. I'm pretty content being solo. I don't know if that means something is wrong with me or what, because it seems to be pretty opposite to everyone else.
I'm just really confused right now. I don't think my qualms will be quieted soon, I feel like my life has to change a good deal first. I guess I'll see.