Things have been off lately
Lately the strangest little things have made me crumble into a sobbing wreck. The weirdest things have been making me think about my dad. I always thought it would get easier as time went on, but lately it's been a lot harder. Even though he was gone I always knew what he would have thought of what I was doing. We never discussed college, I don't think he thought I'd make it. I just wish I knew that somehow he knew that I did eventually grow up and make it into college. I know he would have been proud of me but I wish I could hear him say it. I miss coming in on cold days and having him give me a big warm hug, nothing could touch me when he hugged me, I was never safer. It's amazing how much worse it's been lately, worse even than it was right after he died. I just miss him.