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Mon. Nov. 10th; lunchtime
This weekend was fantastic! In more ways than one.
First we win the Quidditch game, and then I win both the foil and the rapier finale yesterday. It wasn't entirely my skill that gave me that second trophy though. If Adrian had been... I don't know how to put this... there, for lack of a better word, I could well have lost. Anyway, that tournament is over now, and we're going to the next one in Egypt. Apparently, Baddock is going with us. I hope there will be some time to look at the sights. I really want to see the temple at Thebes.
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Whatever is going on between Adrian and Baddock is still puzzling me, or rather pulling my attention and imagination. I'll ask Adrian. He's usually ok with straight questions.
Blaise was absolutely, mindblowingly great too. Last night! This morning! Oh gods... He's cute, he maintained that coming three times in an evening wasn't too much. So, I hope we do get to find out just how many tims we can manage in a night sometime. This morning, he sucked me off, and he didn't want anything in return. He said he was perfectly happy with just swallowing me, that was what he wanted and nothing more. I'm still a bit surprised over this. I mean, it's not often I meet someone who is happy with just giving, more like never. I'm not used to receiving just like that, but it felt good. Very good.
This feels so weird to write down, but I don't have anyone to talk to about these things. Anyway, I think I have a crush on him. It's not one of those 'oh he looks nice' kind of crushes either. Like with Theo. This feels so strong... Like I want to be with him, spend time with him as often as possible. Every day if I could. We decided to meet up in the library on Wednesday morning, and again after dinner.
The way I feel is a bit scary, I'm already looking forward to it. And why am I doing that? It's just sex... very good, absolutely great sex, but still... Just to be with him, be close, hold him, feel his warm body against mine. It felt so good to wake up this morning, with him there. Why do I... What is he doing to me? Why does it feel this way? I don't understand this. This is not me, not how I usually do handle things. It's like I'm getting sucked into something that I don't know what it is, but I'm powerless to stop it. Should I stop it? Should I stop seeing him? I want him. I want him in a way I've only felt once never felt before... It's just a crush, it'll pass. I know it will.
And I'm not making any sense to myself either when I write this. Good thing no one will see it.
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This weekend was fantastic! In more ways than one.
First we win the Quidditch game, and then I win both the foil and the rapier finale yesterday. It wasn't entirely my skill that gave me that second trophy though. If Adrian had been... I don't know how to put this... there, for lack of a better word, I could well have lost. Anyway, that tournament is over now, and we're going to the next one in Egypt. Apparently, Baddock is going with us. I hope there will be some time to look at the sights. I really want to see the temple at Thebes.
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Whatever is going on between Adrian and Baddock is still puzzling me, or rather pulling my attention and imagination. I'll ask Adrian. He's usually ok with straight questions.
Blaise was absolutely, mindblowingly great too. Last night! This morning! Oh gods... He's cute, he maintained that coming three times in an evening wasn't too much. So, I hope we do get to find out just how many tims we can manage in a night sometime. This morning, he sucked me off, and he didn't want anything in return. He said he was perfectly happy with just swallowing me, that was what he wanted and nothing more. I'm still a bit surprised over this. I mean, it's not often I meet someone who is happy with just giving, more like never. I'm not used to receiving just like that, but it felt good. Very good.
This feels so weird to write down, but I don't have anyone to talk to about these things. Anyway, I think I have a crush on him. It's not one of those 'oh he looks nice' kind of crushes either. Like with Theo. This feels so strong... Like I want to be with him, spend time with him as often as possible. Every day if I could. We decided to meet up in the library on Wednesday morning, and again after dinner.
The way I feel is a bit scary, I'm already looking forward to it. And why am I doing that? It's just sex... very good, absolutely great sex, but still... Just to be with him, be close, hold him, feel his warm body against mine. It felt so good to wake up this morning, with him there. Why do I... What is he doing to me? Why does it feel this way? I don't understand this. This is not me, not how I usually do handle things. It's like I'm getting sucked into something that I don't know what it is, but I'm powerless to stop it. Should I stop it? Should I stop seeing him? I want him. I want him in a way I've only felt once never felt before... It's just a crush, it'll pass. I know it will.
And I'm not making any sense to myself either when I write this. Good thing no one will see it.
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