"take my hand, live while you can..."
"He said take my hand,
Live while you can
And if we walk now we will divide and conquer this land"
"you can't break my spirits, its my dreams you take"
as each day passes along the hundred sum of us get closer and closer to may 18th exactly 7:00 pm. its just so weird. i know that every senior goes through this when they near graduation, but now it is our time, it is our time to take the walk in those ugly purple gowns. i keep having this same dream, im walking down this sidewalk and its really sunny and all the trees around me are red and orange and some are still green. its beautiful and warm and clearly its mid fall. then i realize that im not at home, im in south dakota. and all of a sudden i get really sad. i look around me almost franticlly as if looking for something familiar but i find nothing. then i guess i wake up. i dont remember much after that. the point is, is that i have such mixed emotions. i have told no one but tracy this, but i really am scared. and actually not so much scared as i am sad. i just am so sad that i am leaving ALL my friends. i know it was my decision to leave and i still stand behind it because i am excited, but i am sad. every free second i have in my mind, every time my brain has nothing to think about, i think about this. i think about leaving and about the day i have to say goodbye to katie or dale or sarah k or paul or tracy or mo or lu or any of my friends. i invision where we'll be, what the weather will be like, what i'll say, what they'll say, everything. its just hard to imagine life without these people. without the daily routine they give me. and without seeing them for months on end. not days of even weeks, but months. but what its a struggle because i also am really excited. i mean soccer is going to kick my ass but it is what i have always wanted and now i have it and i am grateful for that. it is going to be a totally new experience for me (especially the small town, which im not big on but who knows, it could work...)one that i think will do me good. its all a part of growing up. a part i am anxious and reasy for. but i dont think i am quite as ready to LEAVE BEHIND the part i just got finished with
Live while you can
And if we walk now we will divide and conquer this land"
"you can't break my spirits, its my dreams you take"
as each day passes along the hundred sum of us get closer and closer to may 18th exactly 7:00 pm. its just so weird. i know that every senior goes through this when they near graduation, but now it is our time, it is our time to take the walk in those ugly purple gowns. i keep having this same dream, im walking down this sidewalk and its really sunny and all the trees around me are red and orange and some are still green. its beautiful and warm and clearly its mid fall. then i realize that im not at home, im in south dakota. and all of a sudden i get really sad. i look around me almost franticlly as if looking for something familiar but i find nothing. then i guess i wake up. i dont remember much after that. the point is, is that i have such mixed emotions. i have told no one but tracy this, but i really am scared. and actually not so much scared as i am sad. i just am so sad that i am leaving ALL my friends. i know it was my decision to leave and i still stand behind it because i am excited, but i am sad. every free second i have in my mind, every time my brain has nothing to think about, i think about this. i think about leaving and about the day i have to say goodbye to katie or dale or sarah k or paul or tracy or mo or lu or any of my friends. i invision where we'll be, what the weather will be like, what i'll say, what they'll say, everything. its just hard to imagine life without these people. without the daily routine they give me. and without seeing them for months on end. not days of even weeks, but months. but what its a struggle because i also am really excited. i mean soccer is going to kick my ass but it is what i have always wanted and now i have it and i am grateful for that. it is going to be a totally new experience for me (especially the small town, which im not big on but who knows, it could work...)one that i think will do me good. its all a part of growing up. a part i am anxious and reasy for. but i dont think i am quite as ready to LEAVE BEHIND the part i just got finished with