Sep 30, 2016 18:23
Within like a couple of minutes of each other, "we need these several dozen British court cases, the oldest from 1917, the most recent, from a couple of weeks ago", and, "I am looking for SEC complaints in insider trading misappropriation cases where scienter is based only on recklessness." One is the kind of request I damn near live for; the other is...why am I, whose major interests in life are anime and video games, even reading this? And what do I f-ing do with this? Where do I even *begin* doing anything with this? Hell, half an hour or so later, when I forward *an answer*, yes, the person on the other end may be satisfied, or at least, hasn't complained, but I still feel like I shouldn't be doing this in the first place. What right do I have to answering actual, like, *real* questions like this one in the first place!
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I guess, connected - so, our, uh, "most senior" librarian is retiring - at 94; today is actually her last day. I mean, for years now, she's been basically just a mascot, and maybe, hey, kept around pretty much for memories and for the sake of senior attorneys who are in their 70's themselves, and remember her from their own glorious youths, and just because, hey, who would take it upon themselves to *tell* her to retire! So, we've already done a company-wide appreciation event, then a division-level party, then, earlier this week, the department went out to lunch. Nothing big or fancy, just a prix fixe hotel restaurant a block over. And I'm sitting there, yes, one of the group, but really, most of what I can think to myself is that I don't actually care for your people's interests or personal lives. Most of you been working together for what, a decade now, and at that, it's not like any of you care about mine or *my interests*. And, no way around it, I don't *feel* like I'm on your level. And I don't want to be. I want to be at AWA, or something! Whatever birth date is listed on my ID - I sure as hell don't feel like I'm that. I don't know how to be that!
...and, on *another* related note. You know, wherever *you* were ten years ago...but, where was I ten years ago? Ten years ago, I was sitting in the same apartment that I pay the rent on now, with a story-heavy JRPG with giant robots. Don't remember exactly, did I already completely give up on my job at this point, or was I another few days from completely giving up; for that matter, also don't remember, did I already completely decide on IU, or was just strongly considering. Did I even have any idea where I would be over once the new year came around?
(LJ *of* ten years ago helpfully reminds me - yes, was already in the middle of sending the paperwork through to IU; yes, still a few days to go on giving up...)
Hey, at least some of the people who were sixteen in 2006 - or, for that matter, 25 in 2006 - went on to work in the video game industry themselves. And, you know, if it is one of those people who were *really* into Xenosaga then - is now one of the people who brought us Trails of Cold Steel - *especially* that one scene in II where Crow's gear damn near has wings - I would *really* not be surprised!