Stuck on . . . him?
A lot of friends have been reading my LJ and are curious as to what a lot of my posts mean. For the most part, I try not to give too many details, believing that only I and the people involved should know them. This entry won't provide details to anything, just a brief summary from my point of view.
SUMMING IT UP...?
As known, and mentioned in previous posts, I had found someone I had taken an interest in, and I believed the feeling was mutual. I came across an ex-girlfriend though, one who I assumed was a complete and total bitch based on the things I was told about her. I admitted this to her, and she'll openly admit that she is indeed a bitch, a trait worth admiring if you ask me. She also shedded light on areas that were so very dim. I simply adore this lady... Can't call her girl, she might kick my ghosty arse. She's blunt, honest, and doesn't spare my feelings on any matter which leads me to believe that nothing she's ever said to me has been a lie. Of course, with such thoughts, it means I'm calling the other a liar, and just based on some of the things I heard, it's the most suitable name. Currently, I'm confused. I'd like to work my issues out, resume a friendly relationship with the guy, but everytime I attempt to talk to him, I feel steam come out my ears because I can't help but question his each and every word. That's simply not how a relationship should be, friendly or otherwise. If I like you, and you care to know more, if you don't already get it, IM me, and I'll fill you in on the bits I may have skipped over. ^^
BRIGHT SIDE?
As always, with a negative I try to include a positive. At the moment, I'm having trouble finding one. My plans have been pretty much cancelled due to the need to look after my siblings as Mom rarely comes home anymore, and I'll be DAMNED if I let them stay with the step-dad. As proven, age is nothing but a number to him. The only... semi-positive thing I have to add, I found a Prom dress, hairstyle, and got an appointment for my nails scheduled. I'm... as said, estatic. On a random side-note, I got a litte... well, drunk, recently. Normally, I don't indulge in the stuff, as it's illegal for me. But, with it being a holiday, and my only bit of time with friends, I went ahead and had one... or two... or four. Tried some different ones! I APOLOGIZE PROFUSELY for any conversations that were... odder than the usual. You still love me, yeah??
LOVE?
Andrew was here earlier, after dropping me off from this modeling gig thing. It was SO much FUN! Oh, and Nick and Andrew met. Nick came by the studio place, just to check up on me (How sweeeet!), and Andrew was my ride. Of course, it was awkward, but overall great. I don't date either of them, though. They're great guys and all, but I just don't want a relationship at the moment. I DO have thoughts of pursuing a relationship with a certain someone, as I'm fairly certain when it comes to his feelings, so, more than likely, I'll take a shot with him. ^_^
SUMMING IT UP...?
As known, and mentioned in previous posts, I had found someone I had taken an interest in, and I believed the feeling was mutual. I came across an ex-girlfriend though, one who I assumed was a complete and total bitch based on the things I was told about her. I admitted this to her, and she'll openly admit that she is indeed a bitch, a trait worth admiring if you ask me. She also shedded light on areas that were so very dim. I simply adore this lady... Can't call her girl, she might kick my ghosty arse. She's blunt, honest, and doesn't spare my feelings on any matter which leads me to believe that nothing she's ever said to me has been a lie. Of course, with such thoughts, it means I'm calling the other a liar, and just based on some of the things I heard, it's the most suitable name. Currently, I'm confused. I'd like to work my issues out, resume a friendly relationship with the guy, but everytime I attempt to talk to him, I feel steam come out my ears because I can't help but question his each and every word. That's simply not how a relationship should be, friendly or otherwise. If I like you, and you care to know more, if you don't already get it, IM me, and I'll fill you in on the bits I may have skipped over. ^^
BRIGHT SIDE?
As always, with a negative I try to include a positive. At the moment, I'm having trouble finding one. My plans have been pretty much cancelled due to the need to look after my siblings as Mom rarely comes home anymore, and I'll be DAMNED if I let them stay with the step-dad. As proven, age is nothing but a number to him. The only... semi-positive thing I have to add, I found a Prom dress, hairstyle, and got an appointment for my nails scheduled. I'm... as said, estatic. On a random side-note, I got a litte... well, drunk, recently. Normally, I don't indulge in the stuff, as it's illegal for me. But, with it being a holiday, and my only bit of time with friends, I went ahead and had one... or two... or four. Tried some different ones! I APOLOGIZE PROFUSELY for any conversations that were... odder than the usual. You still love me, yeah??
LOVE?
Andrew was here earlier, after dropping me off from this modeling gig thing. It was SO much FUN! Oh, and Nick and Andrew met. Nick came by the studio place, just to check up on me (How sweeeet!), and Andrew was my ride. Of course, it was awkward, but overall great. I don't date either of them, though. They're great guys and all, but I just don't want a relationship at the moment. I DO have thoughts of pursuing a relationship with a certain someone, as I'm fairly certain when it comes to his feelings, so, more than likely, I'll take a shot with him. ^_^