Mar 25, 2007 01:52
Wow. Talk about not updating in forever. My last entry was back in September, it seems. Wooow.
I'm not really sure what there is to say. I mean, most of what I could mention, those that need to know already know. Uhm. I, unfortunately, am living with my mother once more. And it's not because I couldn't handle living on my own, but it's for her own sake. She recently had surgery for ovarian cancer, and is still suffering some backlash from that. Sometimes it's mood swings, others it's hot flashes. Either way, she doesn't want to be stuck at that house without anyone to rely on to take care of things. Also, I'm sharing "my" room with a two-year-old. Cassie, who is actually the daughter of a friend of my mom's, is living with us. Cassie's mom isn't suited to raise a child, but the courts believe my mom is. If all goes well, we'll be adopting her. Trouble is, my mom works the majority of the time and is out and about drinking and whatnot the rest of the time. Who does that leave to take care of Cassie? Me. The girl is calling me "Mommy" lately, which is no good. She calls MY MOM grandmother, which makes my mom all teary-eyed, and then glancing at me.
She's upset that I'm not dating anyone. I mean, really. Shouldn't that be my own discretion? When I date, and who? But my family believes it to be akin to blasphemy if a female is not on the arm of a male, or talking about marriage. My mom was engaged at this age, afterall. Yeesh.
But that's not to say I'm not interested in the opposite sex, because, of course, I am. I don't know though. I mean, I've admitted that I do care for a certain person, who I had before, and this time I'm sure it'll go somewhere providing we're both willing. I'm just not sure where either of us stand, or if I'll be capable of handling a relationship. Heh, I'm quite a disaster when it comes to things of that nature. Not to mention, I seem to have stumbled upon someone else who piques my interest. I mean, I'm not saying I'm head-over-heels for them, but they're interesting in their own right, I s'pose. ...I make little to no sense some nights.
Maaaaaan, not to mention, I am tiiiired. Pulled an all-nighter and may be repeating that. I made a deal with someone, that I'd go to bed when they did, that way I could insure they got SOME sleep, as it's only healthy. I think he'll outlast me on this one, but I'm gonna try, by golly!
Hmmmmmm, that's about it, really. I'm going to go change clothes. It's soo hot in here for some reason.
james blunt