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So, yay this weekend was pretty fucking fucked up. But I love it when life gets like this. It's quite interesting really. Okay, so I told Joel that I don't like him and he was soooo awesome about it. So, nice in fact that i loke him all over again. Hahahahah...just kidding. Wouldn't that be funny though? However, he did say, and I quote,"Oh yeah, I thought thats all we were the whole time" Um...he wrote me a love poem. Stress on the word loooooooooovve. Well, perhaps he does that to all of his 'friends.' So, then I met this incredible guy from Boulder named Amitai (isn't that an awesome name?) and I mentioned that I was kind of attracted to him and my friend told him that I wanted to hook up with him. I freaked out cause I thought he would be weirded out obviously...but he said that we would go out with me but he doesn't want to hurt Joel's feelings. Apparently he has something called 'morals.' Well, whatever floats his boat. Oh, we got snowed it for an extra day up there. We were stuck and it was awesome. Except the food it terrible...like horrible. Yeah...I had Cheez-Its though, so all was well. Anyway, another one of Elliot's friends liek me and I think it is adorable. Let's see what else...I read this article in Teen Vogue where this girl was harraassed on livejournal and people made fun of her...so now I am paranoid. Ya'll wouldn't do that to me, would you? It feels so good to have the Joel thing off my chest...I can move on from it now.
I was thinking while I was at the mountains during Senior Circle (a thing where the senior talk for like four hours to us in complete darkness) that next year is going to be so depressing. I am going to cry the whole time. I know it. My brother is leaving!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what I am going to do. I am going to miss him a lot. Okay, no more sadness. I am listening to the best song right now. I am going to use it;s mentality from now on.
I was thinking while I was at the mountains during Senior Circle (a thing where the senior talk for like four hours to us in complete darkness) that next year is going to be so depressing. I am going to cry the whole time. I know it. My brother is leaving!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what I am going to do. I am going to miss him a lot. Okay, no more sadness. I am listening to the best song right now. I am going to use it;s mentality from now on.