I dont know what to do..
God-
I dont know what to do. I am completely stuck and I dont know how to get myself unstuck. Why does life and adulthood seem to be all about choosing one thing over another and making sacrifices? I find myself in a very difficult position because I am working at a job I dont really like basically because I need th emoney. I have been entertaining the idea of quitting recently, but two of the other hostesses beat me to it. This means an increase in hours for me- including Sundays. I cannot work on Sundays and even though they have scheduled me before on Sundays, I have always been able to get someone to cover for me but I wont be able to anymore. I have a prior engagement.. I work with the youth group. I really do not feel that it is fair for me to have to give up working with the youth group- which is something I love and have always wanted to do. I almost want it to be a dealbreaker.. either they give me Sunday's off or I am done. But if I lose this job, the money will dissapear and I really need it to get by with the college loans and Christmas coming up. I am trying to find a new job- but I am still stuck. I dont want to quit either one, but it's looking like I might have to.
Honestly, my gut tells me to quit my job and devote more time to the youth group. Find a better job- one that will allow me to have weekends free so I can play a more active role in the youth group. That is what I want. I know it is.. the idea of that makes me happy and makes me feel so free. I just dont know if this is the right thing.. I dont know if this is what You want. I really need Your help God. I know this is happening for a reason and that You have it under control but I am finding it hard to be patient. I feel like my life is an unsettled mess. A part of me feels like I am having to make the decision between money and You God.. that is honestly how it feels which is why it hurts so much and which is why the idea of choosing Youth Group over Picano's is so appealing. But yet I have to be logical and think about the fact that I do need money right now and that it might be a bit frivolous to just give that up.
I just dont know what to do.
I dont know what to do. I am completely stuck and I dont know how to get myself unstuck. Why does life and adulthood seem to be all about choosing one thing over another and making sacrifices? I find myself in a very difficult position because I am working at a job I dont really like basically because I need th emoney. I have been entertaining the idea of quitting recently, but two of the other hostesses beat me to it. This means an increase in hours for me- including Sundays. I cannot work on Sundays and even though they have scheduled me before on Sundays, I have always been able to get someone to cover for me but I wont be able to anymore. I have a prior engagement.. I work with the youth group. I really do not feel that it is fair for me to have to give up working with the youth group- which is something I love and have always wanted to do. I almost want it to be a dealbreaker.. either they give me Sunday's off or I am done. But if I lose this job, the money will dissapear and I really need it to get by with the college loans and Christmas coming up. I am trying to find a new job- but I am still stuck. I dont want to quit either one, but it's looking like I might have to.
Honestly, my gut tells me to quit my job and devote more time to the youth group. Find a better job- one that will allow me to have weekends free so I can play a more active role in the youth group. That is what I want. I know it is.. the idea of that makes me happy and makes me feel so free. I just dont know if this is the right thing.. I dont know if this is what You want. I really need Your help God. I know this is happening for a reason and that You have it under control but I am finding it hard to be patient. I feel like my life is an unsettled mess. A part of me feels like I am having to make the decision between money and You God.. that is honestly how it feels which is why it hurts so much and which is why the idea of choosing Youth Group over Picano's is so appealing. But yet I have to be logical and think about the fact that I do need money right now and that it might be a bit frivolous to just give that up.
I just dont know what to do.