omg omg omg.....
im dieing its like after 12 and i still have to finsih my history paper start my bio-ethics paper and figure out wtf im doing for college. occidental rep. is coming to c me tomorrow yea now i dont even want to apply there early cauze ppl will be like it was cauze of dj that u didnt apply early before now that we broke up i am...eww i hate that to those ppl shut the fuck up!!!
anyways last night wit lauren didnt go as well as planned we went to like some resturant in the city, and it was chill at first, and we ended up seing steph the girl who slept with dj. i know she goes to school in the city but wat r the odds of that, and it tottaly ruined the mood of the night. so we werent really talking and blah blah and she went to the bathroom and i was chilling at the bar-ish area watching the yankee game. and this girl sitting next to me was like o i like your braclet it was the rainbow one sara'o game me. and her names sarah and she lives in nyack and shes a sr. there. and she knows like alot of dwightys cauze our crew team rows there. and like lauren comes back, and me and sarah were talking up a storm and we had crazy things in common, and i can tell lauren was getting mad cauze she was like "what were u guys seperted at birth" said it like rudly or something. so me and sarah slowly stoped tlaking cauze that made it weird but i got her sn from joe cauze she was like joe lives next door to me and joes in my history class so i just asked him, so i might im her later. i dunno might be kindof weird.
so me and laurens date was blah ended early i was like drop me off on the ave. cauze it was early and it was so dumbt it was like 10 i go to starbucks marsha jax silver anton chris everybodys there we just chilled then went driving rampage, and me and masha were in one car and silver and jax the other and we would drive past the fancy resturants and john harms were there was alot of old rich ppl. and scream sexual things to each other from the cars, it was so funny. "i was like i want to suck your hot tits" and sivler was like "my pussys so wet right now" and we were like i wanna fuck your mom. and hten theyd be like i wanna fuck your mom more. lol it was great ppl were stairing at us. then we went back to starbucks chilled some more.
i met this girl named maggie. she knew me cauze shes friends with one of my ex's and she was like arent u ashleys "friend" and i was like not no more. and shes a jr. at tenafly and she gave me her number but i dont even want to deal with that. tenafly girls r werid. but i think i was rude cauze when she asked for mine, well she said like we should go out sometime. and i didnt want to give her my number so i was just like im always in starbucks just look for me here, which is true, but i dunno i guess she wanted my number w.e. i a am allllwayyyss in starbucks so she can just look there. like today i was there from like 2-7. yesterday i was there after work at 2:30 till 4 went out wit lauren hten 10 till closing.
girls r just so annoying right now all my dates suck. and there so blah. and all these girls like me that i hate, and they wont go away.
and the one girl i like i cant have. and its so fucking annoying cauze shes just so hot, and adorably cute and u just want to like buy her stuff, and drive her around. and i just want her to like me, and like i can show her off and walk into starbucks and go to ralf and chirs jay alvinn all the guys and be like my gfs hotter then your gf. and i can drive her home after work, and i can take really amazing photos of her. and can go to her games, and i can put her in my yearbook page, and everything would be perfect. but no its not like that, life is just filled with meaningless nothings....
poetry is like prayer
i try to write atleast 5 times a day
i want to recite wats in my heart....i recite your name
Everytime I look at you,
my heart begins to melt.
Everytime I think of you,
I wish you knew how I felt.
Your beautiful smile
brings a tear to my eye.
The sound of your gentle voice
makes me want to cry.
I can imagine your kiss,
your warm embrace.
I can imagine your hands
caressing my face.
It feels so great,
so real it seems.
I wish you were here,
and not only in my dreams.
anyways last night wit lauren didnt go as well as planned we went to like some resturant in the city, and it was chill at first, and we ended up seing steph the girl who slept with dj. i know she goes to school in the city but wat r the odds of that, and it tottaly ruined the mood of the night. so we werent really talking and blah blah and she went to the bathroom and i was chilling at the bar-ish area watching the yankee game. and this girl sitting next to me was like o i like your braclet it was the rainbow one sara'o game me. and her names sarah and she lives in nyack and shes a sr. there. and she knows like alot of dwightys cauze our crew team rows there. and like lauren comes back, and me and sarah were talking up a storm and we had crazy things in common, and i can tell lauren was getting mad cauze she was like "what were u guys seperted at birth" said it like rudly or something. so me and sarah slowly stoped tlaking cauze that made it weird but i got her sn from joe cauze she was like joe lives next door to me and joes in my history class so i just asked him, so i might im her later. i dunno might be kindof weird.
so me and laurens date was blah ended early i was like drop me off on the ave. cauze it was early and it was so dumbt it was like 10 i go to starbucks marsha jax silver anton chris everybodys there we just chilled then went driving rampage, and me and masha were in one car and silver and jax the other and we would drive past the fancy resturants and john harms were there was alot of old rich ppl. and scream sexual things to each other from the cars, it was so funny. "i was like i want to suck your hot tits" and sivler was like "my pussys so wet right now" and we were like i wanna fuck your mom. and hten theyd be like i wanna fuck your mom more. lol it was great ppl were stairing at us. then we went back to starbucks chilled some more.
i met this girl named maggie. she knew me cauze shes friends with one of my ex's and she was like arent u ashleys "friend" and i was like not no more. and shes a jr. at tenafly and she gave me her number but i dont even want to deal with that. tenafly girls r werid. but i think i was rude cauze when she asked for mine, well she said like we should go out sometime. and i didnt want to give her my number so i was just like im always in starbucks just look for me here, which is true, but i dunno i guess she wanted my number w.e. i a am allllwayyyss in starbucks so she can just look there. like today i was there from like 2-7. yesterday i was there after work at 2:30 till 4 went out wit lauren hten 10 till closing.
girls r just so annoying right now all my dates suck. and there so blah. and all these girls like me that i hate, and they wont go away.
and the one girl i like i cant have. and its so fucking annoying cauze shes just so hot, and adorably cute and u just want to like buy her stuff, and drive her around. and i just want her to like me, and like i can show her off and walk into starbucks and go to ralf and chirs jay alvinn all the guys and be like my gfs hotter then your gf. and i can drive her home after work, and i can take really amazing photos of her. and can go to her games, and i can put her in my yearbook page, and everything would be perfect. but no its not like that, life is just filled with meaningless nothings....
poetry is like prayer
i try to write atleast 5 times a day
i want to recite wats in my heart....i recite your name
Everytime I look at you,
my heart begins to melt.
Everytime I think of you,
I wish you knew how I felt.
Your beautiful smile
brings a tear to my eye.
The sound of your gentle voice
makes me want to cry.
I can imagine your kiss,
your warm embrace.
I can imagine your hands
caressing my face.
It feels so great,
so real it seems.
I wish you were here,
and not only in my dreams.