the awkwardness prevails
We never talk anymore. I miss you. Or what is it I miss? Do I know you enough to miss it? Am I regretting a dream? I feel like you aren't trying! I want a boyfriend who is happy to see me and tries hard. That would entail waiting for me after class when you know we are going the same way. and attempting to start conversations. that aren't about the weather. they can be random. whatever. I'm random. Are you my boyfriend? ha. one would think that's not a difficult question. alas, I am asking it. Now we are just awkward. And I don't know what to do about you. You boys don't speak your minds. You never tell me what you think about me or just what you are thinking in general. I shouldn't have to interrogate you to hear anecdotes about your day. That's what humans do when they socialize! Try a little, boy, or....god, i don't know. How do I end something that hasn't begun?