Hmm
So tonight is just one of those nights were I just am enjoying being by myself which I rarely do. It is also on of those times were I really wish I wasn't in the Army but that is happening more and more lately especially since I was at home a week ago. I miss being free to do what I want, I seriously feel like I am in prison here, I always think of that one saying "A prison without bars, is a prison none the less" I am not truely stuck here in prison but there isn't anywhere else I can go so I kind of am. I miss lying in bed at 2 in the morning on the phone with Danita, or walking around outside in the snow on the phone. or just being outside and it not be 100 degrees, this morning at 9 when I went to eat breakfast outside in teh breeze way we have it was already 90 degrees at NINE O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING. I will ever complain about the heat again for the rest of my life (who am I kidding I'll be complaining about it being 90 in the middle of the day when I get back in a heart beat) I miss trees and things that are green and flowers and overall pretty nature stuff. I miss being me and not having to pretend to be straight and all this crap. So many lies and I hate it I am sick and tired of having to cover up who I am and who I am happy to be. I want to see someone hot and be like he looks hot and not have to just say it to myself and keep everything inside and hide every emotion I have about anyone. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! lol which reminds me of another quote "I feel I'm in the middle of a crowded room screaming, and no one even looks up." but I just call myself pretty and leave it at that. Laterz Oh by the way today is Day 187 and I am Micheal Moose!!!