Hogwarts
It's been a while, but this feels good.
This past week I've gotten very close to Harry again. Whenever real life gets too real, too scary, too sad, Hogwarts is always there to welcome me home.This week I found a wedding venue and the song that Dale and I will have our first dance to, we'll be married in less than 6 months and it's starting to feel real to me. I have a beautiful life ahead of me and I'm excited for it but I'm also scared to loose myself in the process of becoming someone's wife. My relationship with Dale comes before all else, however I have had moments where it was all that I could handle, I feel that I have now started to get a better handle on how to include other aspects of my life, my friends mostly. I have let them down, haven't been there like I could have been, my slytherin tendencies have put me in a very small box in the past and I'm fighting myself inorder to get out of that box and being a part of everyone's life, not only when it is convenient but also through out the upcoming Christmas season, I have already started pulling my hair out at work but I'm making a conscious effort to stay out of my box, I don't want you to be afraid to let me know when I'm being selfish, when I need to just deal with my shit and get out of my apt on my day off, so keep me out of my box this year, especially with the wedding coming up if I climb back in I might not come out until March!!!
This past week I've gotten very close to Harry again. Whenever real life gets too real, too scary, too sad, Hogwarts is always there to welcome me home.This week I found a wedding venue and the song that Dale and I will have our first dance to, we'll be married in less than 6 months and it's starting to feel real to me. I have a beautiful life ahead of me and I'm excited for it but I'm also scared to loose myself in the process of becoming someone's wife. My relationship with Dale comes before all else, however I have had moments where it was all that I could handle, I feel that I have now started to get a better handle on how to include other aspects of my life, my friends mostly. I have let them down, haven't been there like I could have been, my slytherin tendencies have put me in a very small box in the past and I'm fighting myself inorder to get out of that box and being a part of everyone's life, not only when it is convenient but also through out the upcoming Christmas season, I have already started pulling my hair out at work but I'm making a conscious effort to stay out of my box, I don't want you to be afraid to let me know when I'm being selfish, when I need to just deal with my shit and get out of my apt on my day off, so keep me out of my box this year, especially with the wedding coming up if I climb back in I might not come out until March!!!