So whats going on with my life?
Right now I'm confused about so many things. I don't know what the hell I want to do with my life. Right now, I'm workign at Vintage Tattoo and I love it. I have my Boss Baba who I care so much about, and I love everyone I work with. Right now I'm learning how to pierce and everyone is eggin' me on to do tattooing. I'm thinking about it and I think it might be good for me. My car is like falling apart. But I love it so much. I feel so grown up and proud of myself becuase I'm doing things I never thought I had the energy to do, but still I'm unhappy and I really don't why.
Maybe it's becuase I don't have any true friends. Rachel is always with Guiles and it's like okay whatever.... Bianca and I havent spoken in about 6 months. The only time I ever see Scott and Shawn is when I'm inviting myself to see them and it sucks because I care so much about those two guys I'd do anything for them. I never had my own group of friends like a "crew" it was always me moving every couple of months meeting new people and only hanging out with them sometimes. I don't have a set of friends that I'm so comfortable with that I can just show up at their house when I need someone to talk to. I'm fucking lonely... I hate admitting that but I am. I love sara she's like the sweetest girl ever and we love eachother to death it's just with me working and her going to school and having a boyfriend we dont have too much time to spend together. But every chance I get I see her, Same with Rachel but she is never returning my calls.
Shawn helped me when my car overheated... I'm so thankful I have him and Scotty (my bonbon) as friends but then again It's like how good of friends are we? Becuase they never ask to hang out.. And I'm complaining becuase I dont get enough attention or anything. It's the fact that if I never called either one of them again would they notice? That's what I want to know. I know shawn would but I'm not sure about Scott.He's just so hard to try and figure out. I don't know I'm just venting becuase I cried a little too much last night. I just don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. I want someone there for me when I need help and I want someone I can turn to in times of crisis. I know I need to do things myself and I do. But everyone needs help, comfort and contentment in some point in their life.
This world is coming to an end soon... And I can't wait. I'm sick and tired of selfish people only thinking about themselves and not giving a flying fuck about how our earth is slowing dying right before our very eyes. everything has already been said and done there's absolutely nothing left... Everyone is trying to outsmart and out do everyone that sooner or later they're just gonna blow up. I am counting the days until this world ends so everything can start new and maybe the new generation of human life or living creatures whatever it is that's going to be after us doesn't fuck up the world like we've done. I hate this world with a passion and everyone in it. Why must people be so careless?
Anyway, To look on the brightside of things Im seeing the new cars and blondie in concert soon. And shawn is hopefully coming tomorrow to get my car fixed. and the business is playing soon so that should be fun. I fucking love music... It's my life, and the only smart thing that humans discovered.
So I guess I dont hate people all that much. I dont even fucking know anymore. I'm so confused. Some one needs to help me.
Maybe it's becuase I don't have any true friends. Rachel is always with Guiles and it's like okay whatever.... Bianca and I havent spoken in about 6 months. The only time I ever see Scott and Shawn is when I'm inviting myself to see them and it sucks because I care so much about those two guys I'd do anything for them. I never had my own group of friends like a "crew" it was always me moving every couple of months meeting new people and only hanging out with them sometimes. I don't have a set of friends that I'm so comfortable with that I can just show up at their house when I need someone to talk to. I'm fucking lonely... I hate admitting that but I am. I love sara she's like the sweetest girl ever and we love eachother to death it's just with me working and her going to school and having a boyfriend we dont have too much time to spend together. But every chance I get I see her, Same with Rachel but she is never returning my calls.
Shawn helped me when my car overheated... I'm so thankful I have him and Scotty (my bonbon) as friends but then again It's like how good of friends are we? Becuase they never ask to hang out.. And I'm complaining becuase I dont get enough attention or anything. It's the fact that if I never called either one of them again would they notice? That's what I want to know. I know shawn would but I'm not sure about Scott.He's just so hard to try and figure out. I don't know I'm just venting becuase I cried a little too much last night. I just don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. I want someone there for me when I need help and I want someone I can turn to in times of crisis. I know I need to do things myself and I do. But everyone needs help, comfort and contentment in some point in their life.
This world is coming to an end soon... And I can't wait. I'm sick and tired of selfish people only thinking about themselves and not giving a flying fuck about how our earth is slowing dying right before our very eyes. everything has already been said and done there's absolutely nothing left... Everyone is trying to outsmart and out do everyone that sooner or later they're just gonna blow up. I am counting the days until this world ends so everything can start new and maybe the new generation of human life or living creatures whatever it is that's going to be after us doesn't fuck up the world like we've done. I hate this world with a passion and everyone in it. Why must people be so careless?
Anyway, To look on the brightside of things Im seeing the new cars and blondie in concert soon. And shawn is hopefully coming tomorrow to get my car fixed. and the business is playing soon so that should be fun. I fucking love music... It's my life, and the only smart thing that humans discovered.
So I guess I dont hate people all that much. I dont even fucking know anymore. I'm so confused. Some one needs to help me.