I thought I would post just for the sake of doing so.
I really haven't bothered in a few weeks. Not intentional, I've just been either busy or tired. Job is okay. I'm told that I may not be made "permanent" due to the fact that I'm going back to school. That sucks. It basically means that while I may still have the job and the 40 hour weeks and whatnot, I won't get any benefits/paid holidays/vacation time ect. So excuse the fuck out of me for trying to better myself. I guess it has to do with my "flexibility". I kinda wish someone would have mentioned this when I started, though I can't say it would've made a difference. I mean, it's more money than I've ever made, and I never had any of those benefits and perks before, so I guess I'm not really missing out. Just a bummer. I was looking forward to paid vacation--I'm going to need it after a year or two of working and going to school. Bleh. Whatever. I'm just not very lucky. At least it's not phone work, right?
In other news, this evening Ken and I talked to a friend of his who's a realtor. Apparently we can just about afford a trailer (albeit a decent one) in Sun Valley. I think we'll be putting off the house-buying for a bit longer. Again, I'm just not lucky. Kind of a loser, really. I shouldn't get too bothered. I mean, I'm doing just about everything I intended to do. I'm going back to school. I have a car. I don't work at Telco. I'm building a portfolio. I bagged Ken. (Yeah, for awhile that was an actual life goal.) None of the good stuff has happened on the time line I'd planned. I wanted to be out of Telco months before I was. I wanted to drive years before I did. I wanted Ken from the time I was 17. It's taken me over four years to get back to school. I guess the whole buying a house thing is just another thing that will happen eventually--Far after when I'd planned it. Some people never buy a house and I know plenty of people well over a decade older than me that are no closer to buying a house than I am. I'm too competitive. A lot of people I know are buying houses right now, and I have to admit, I'm a bit envious. (Though I think this is evened out by the fact that literally half of my female friends are pregnant or have just given birth and I don't envy that a damn bit.) I tend to forget, until Bill or Ken remind me, that I started out with a bit of a disadvantage compared to most people. I grew up poor. I was abused. I ended up dropping out of school. (Not entirely by choice.) I'm mentally ill. (Not a cop-out. It really did set me back a bit. Hard to plan ahead when offing yourself is on your Short List.) There have just been a lot of things have have held me up. It didn't help that I never really thought most of this stuff was possible. Things like getting a college degree, buying a house, investing, and having a job that you don't hate that actually pays the bills were foreign to me. I really didn't think those were feasible things. I mean, my mom was a waitress until she lost her marbles and had to start collecting SSD because she was too nuts to work. My dad had a job he hated and barely managed to pay his bills. Unless one of my cousins has gone, I don't think anyone in my entire family has a college degree. Neither of my parents even have a savings account. The other day my little brother asked me if I was rich. Compared to my mom, I pretty much am. I don't think I know too many other people who are so much more well-off and successful than their parents. Doesn't really matter, I suppose. Moving on...
Here's some good news:
KEN'S VASECTOMY IS SCHEDULED FOR SEPTEMBER 1ST. WHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
And I think I'll just end on that positive note.
In other news, this evening Ken and I talked to a friend of his who's a realtor. Apparently we can just about afford a trailer (albeit a decent one) in Sun Valley. I think we'll be putting off the house-buying for a bit longer. Again, I'm just not lucky. Kind of a loser, really. I shouldn't get too bothered. I mean, I'm doing just about everything I intended to do. I'm going back to school. I have a car. I don't work at Telco. I'm building a portfolio. I bagged Ken. (Yeah, for awhile that was an actual life goal.) None of the good stuff has happened on the time line I'd planned. I wanted to be out of Telco months before I was. I wanted to drive years before I did. I wanted Ken from the time I was 17. It's taken me over four years to get back to school. I guess the whole buying a house thing is just another thing that will happen eventually--Far after when I'd planned it. Some people never buy a house and I know plenty of people well over a decade older than me that are no closer to buying a house than I am. I'm too competitive. A lot of people I know are buying houses right now, and I have to admit, I'm a bit envious. (Though I think this is evened out by the fact that literally half of my female friends are pregnant or have just given birth and I don't envy that a damn bit.) I tend to forget, until Bill or Ken remind me, that I started out with a bit of a disadvantage compared to most people. I grew up poor. I was abused. I ended up dropping out of school. (Not entirely by choice.) I'm mentally ill. (Not a cop-out. It really did set me back a bit. Hard to plan ahead when offing yourself is on your Short List.) There have just been a lot of things have have held me up. It didn't help that I never really thought most of this stuff was possible. Things like getting a college degree, buying a house, investing, and having a job that you don't hate that actually pays the bills were foreign to me. I really didn't think those were feasible things. I mean, my mom was a waitress until she lost her marbles and had to start collecting SSD because she was too nuts to work. My dad had a job he hated and barely managed to pay his bills. Unless one of my cousins has gone, I don't think anyone in my entire family has a college degree. Neither of my parents even have a savings account. The other day my little brother asked me if I was rich. Compared to my mom, I pretty much am. I don't think I know too many other people who are so much more well-off and successful than their parents. Doesn't really matter, I suppose. Moving on...
Here's some good news:
KEN'S VASECTOMY IS SCHEDULED FOR SEPTEMBER 1ST. WHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
And I think I'll just end on that positive note.