I hate whats happening right now
I hate whats going on in my life right now, last night I got in a huge fight with my little brother, my parents are pissed at me for haveing bad grades (for the first time they care, and now it's too late to do anything helpful), no matter what I do am I going to graduate with my class unless I take summer school or night school (niether of which I am willing to do).
I have no money, I can't get a job because I'm fifteen and no place I would want to work will hire me until I'm at least sixteen, I hate my school, it feels like a prison, I can't concentrate, I infact concentrate better when I'm high (for the moment) then I do when I'm sober, I maintained a constant high tuesday and wednsday and got more school work done and turned in than I have in the last two months!
I have probobly three or four credits, not nearly enough to matter.
my girlfriend asked me back out and I said yes (I don't know why) I don't feel like I can deal with all this and a relationship (especially as demanding as she is, which isn't even that demanding).
all my friends are to busy with their own stuff to listen to me, not that they can really help me much.
I just want to drop out and get my G.E.D.
e.d.i.
h.u.p.
t.c.l.
o.a.o.
t.m.
i.a.
o.
n.
and call it quits, for now, and get a job. but if I do that my dad said he would kick me out and I would have to find somewhere to live then, I have no particular mathmatical ability's, and I can't do anything without getting mind numbingly bored after about thirty to fourty minutes.
nothing in particular seems interesting to me, my anti depressents only made it worse so I stopped takeing them, and I'm just so fucking pissed off with myself.
god damn I'm starting to sound like a fucking (bad) country singer.
I just realized how much I have thrown away by not paying attention or careing in/about school.
I have no money, I can't get a job because I'm fifteen and no place I would want to work will hire me until I'm at least sixteen, I hate my school, it feels like a prison, I can't concentrate, I infact concentrate better when I'm high (for the moment) then I do when I'm sober, I maintained a constant high tuesday and wednsday and got more school work done and turned in than I have in the last two months!
I have probobly three or four credits, not nearly enough to matter.
my girlfriend asked me back out and I said yes (I don't know why) I don't feel like I can deal with all this and a relationship (especially as demanding as she is, which isn't even that demanding).
all my friends are to busy with their own stuff to listen to me, not that they can really help me much.
I just want to drop out and get my G.E.D.
e.d.i.
h.u.p.
t.c.l.
o.a.o.
t.m.
i.a.
o.
n.
and call it quits, for now, and get a job. but if I do that my dad said he would kick me out and I would have to find somewhere to live then, I have no particular mathmatical ability's, and I can't do anything without getting mind numbingly bored after about thirty to fourty minutes.
nothing in particular seems interesting to me, my anti depressents only made it worse so I stopped takeing them, and I'm just so fucking pissed off with myself.
god damn I'm starting to sound like a fucking (bad) country singer.
I just realized how much I have thrown away by not paying attention or careing in/about school.