ghfghf
i'm feeling pretty not good. i'm not even sure why. it's just my default mood i guess. i never get anything done. whenever i actually do things, i end up thinking "that wasn't hard at all...and now i feel good about getting this done." but for some reason that's not enough motivation to get me off my ass. i'm just real lazy. maybe. i don't know. all i know is i'm always worried about how short life is and how my youth is fading way too fast, and still i waste time. and it's nobody's fault but my own. ugh.