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I'm so sick of the person I've become and I've realised that the only good people in my life are the ones I shoved away because they were too much like me.
I forgot why I fell in love with sean until today while him and I were talking on msn. I hate that I hurt him because I know I never meant to, I know I never REALLY thought anything negative about him, I was just pissed off at myself.
I've discovered this weekend that no matter how much shit I buy, it doesn't make me feel better, I'm compensating for something I can't figure out. I guess it's just because I was taught that money buys you happiness. Sometimes I hate my dad, my mom understands that I want to travel and be happy just living, even if I don't have enough money to go on. I'm just SO ready to pack up at leave.
I need to purge tonight.
PS. My mom was in the hospital because her throat closed and she couldn't breathe
pps. I can't stand even thinking about Chris.
I forgot why I fell in love with sean until today while him and I were talking on msn. I hate that I hurt him because I know I never meant to, I know I never REALLY thought anything negative about him, I was just pissed off at myself.
I've discovered this weekend that no matter how much shit I buy, it doesn't make me feel better, I'm compensating for something I can't figure out. I guess it's just because I was taught that money buys you happiness. Sometimes I hate my dad, my mom understands that I want to travel and be happy just living, even if I don't have enough money to go on. I'm just SO ready to pack up at leave.
I need to purge tonight.
PS. My mom was in the hospital because her throat closed and she couldn't breathe
pps. I can't stand even thinking about Chris.