i wish that you'd never hurt again
hey everyone.
just got back from school, its nice to be home at 2:30 for once. tennis is over. we had our last game yesterday. but on monday, i had this epiphany. i figured out how to focus all this positive energy that i sometimes create, on the game, and it worked. i played better than i ever have. it was an awesome feeling, actually two awesome feelings combined. it was pretty great, i had alot of fun, played really well, and had a huge smile on my face the entire time. and on wednesday as i practiced this new theory, this girl from silverado who beat us told me that i play really well. so that felt super good. too bad it's over as soon as i figure out how to do it. but hopefully i'll be able to focus that energy on other areas, such as schoolwork, or boys. haha just kidding about that last one. while we're on that subject, i must say i'm feeling pretty upbeat when it comes to then. there is no one really special in that part of my mind, im' just soooooooo happy to have a homecoming date. today me and danielle made banners for the game tomorrow.
oh yeah, i have a job kind of. on fridays i'm going to be the model for this life drawing class. so i move around and people draw me a a stick figure. but hey, ten dollars an hour, i'm down. so that should be cool.
as far as weekend plans, i don't seem to have quite alot. after i "work" tomorrow, i'm headin over to the football game. then we're going to the game, and probably something after. on saturday, going to the men's soccer game. there's also an alumni game after, and i can't help but hope, although i know it is not possible, that somehow brett will be there. i still miss that kid like crazy. anyway, after the game, maybe i'll hang out with mycah since his boyfriend won't be in town. i was thinking about calling kari, but then i remembered that saturday night is lauren's birthday party. god i love the girl but no one can piss me off the way she does. she takes delight in it, and really made me mad today. but it is okay. i still lobe her. after that... who knows??????????????????????????????
just got back from school, its nice to be home at 2:30 for once. tennis is over. we had our last game yesterday. but on monday, i had this epiphany. i figured out how to focus all this positive energy that i sometimes create, on the game, and it worked. i played better than i ever have. it was an awesome feeling, actually two awesome feelings combined. it was pretty great, i had alot of fun, played really well, and had a huge smile on my face the entire time. and on wednesday as i practiced this new theory, this girl from silverado who beat us told me that i play really well. so that felt super good. too bad it's over as soon as i figure out how to do it. but hopefully i'll be able to focus that energy on other areas, such as schoolwork, or boys. haha just kidding about that last one. while we're on that subject, i must say i'm feeling pretty upbeat when it comes to then. there is no one really special in that part of my mind, im' just soooooooo happy to have a homecoming date. today me and danielle made banners for the game tomorrow.
oh yeah, i have a job kind of. on fridays i'm going to be the model for this life drawing class. so i move around and people draw me a a stick figure. but hey, ten dollars an hour, i'm down. so that should be cool.
as far as weekend plans, i don't seem to have quite alot. after i "work" tomorrow, i'm headin over to the football game. then we're going to the game, and probably something after. on saturday, going to the men's soccer game. there's also an alumni game after, and i can't help but hope, although i know it is not possible, that somehow brett will be there. i still miss that kid like crazy. anyway, after the game, maybe i'll hang out with mycah since his boyfriend won't be in town. i was thinking about calling kari, but then i remembered that saturday night is lauren's birthday party. god i love the girl but no one can piss me off the way she does. she takes delight in it, and really made me mad today. but it is okay. i still lobe her. after that... who knows??????????????????????????????