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[corehisyomomma]

Here goes..for 16 maybe 17 years I have held mostly everything in. Suppose it's time I let it all out...maybe I will feel better. When I was 5 I watched my grandmother die, When I was little maybe 6/7 I was raped..this is why I hate Kunt so much. He brings back those memories. In Feb my best friend Kyle killed himself. I have been holding in all

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Corie...

[poopooloo]

Although I haven't really in retrospect known you all that long, I am here if ever you need to talk to someone, I know what its like to keep all of your emotions in and not tell anyone... I watched my granddad die just over 2 years ago now, and I couldnt face going to his funeral because he was pretty much the one family member I got a long with. At the time I couldn't come to grips with it, I didn't even cry, and I think this is one of the things that built up in side me and led me to be depressed, along with the way my family were treating me in general. I have had friends who have tried to commit suicide, heck only about a month a go I tried to commit suicide, and from that I'm trying to get help. So just remember Corie, I am here if ever you want to talk, Some people say I give great advice, I have in the past given complete strangers advice and they said that it did help that I was trying to help them. So if ever, and I mean ever need to talk to someone I am here, sometimes its easier to talk about things and get someone else's perspective on things so that you have a better understanding and can see it from different points of view. Things in life are often complicated and messed up by accepting this and trying to move on from it is the best that anyone can do. This is one of the reasons I'm writing my book, to help me to come to terms with what I have done and maybe even help someone who is in the same possition. Writing this book maybe one of the hardest things I have to do but in the long run it is going to help me, and give me a better understanding of things. I know most of this probably seems like me ranting on about my life and whats going on in my life, but in reality I'm showing that things can get better. So if you need to talk I'm here, if you want to add me to your msn list and talk to me on there thats fine, I will try and help any way I can in the best possible way.
Corie things will get better believe me and when they do you'll look back and see that although you were down and depressed you did have people there who said they would help and talk to you. Just remember you do have good friends that are here for you to talk to. If you feel like your bothering or going to bore them in tell them dont think that way. It wont bore me, I could for hours just sit and try and help people without getting bored because I enjoy helping people. and will always be here to help people if they need help. I'll listen to your problems and give you my view on it and from there you can either listen to it or throw it away, the choice is simply yours.
Sorry this post is so long somethings take a while to type but I hope this helps in some way, if not oh well it was worth a try.
Lucy
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