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After approximately 6 months of on-and-off workouts, prolonged bedrests, overtimes and other issues, yesterday Be my old trainer finally came up and said "I want to train you again".
I guess that's a testament of 1) how out-of-shape i am and 2) how much he actually cares about my fitness level - professional and as a friend.
Thing is - we had a little history together - long before i dated Bear. I can already feel some awkwardness creeping just from the way Bear replies my text when I told him about Be's offer. But I still think i'm doing the right thing by being up front instead of keeping it a secret - which might fuel worse outcomes in the end.
Be had the quintessential badboy thing going on, which i naturally gravitated towards. The fact that he's *shamelessly* flirty also added to the fling-ish trainer-student relationship. Which was fun at the time, sort of re-living my adolescent days when you're trying to guess and (over) analyze every little move, glance, touch and smile.
And yes, Bear was completely and fully aware of this situation, long before I was transfered to him when Be was promoted as lead trainer at another branch. I openly discussed my "relationship" with him during his courtship attempt - i wasn't being mean, mind you, i just want to know how serious he was. Yes, at one point i was trying to push him away, but he persistently stayed by my side, figuratively and literally. So yeah, we ended up dating. A little over a year now.
But i guess one's true nature will come out one time or another. For an apparently very very VERY patient human being, Bear's got jealousy ingrained somewhere in his big, muscular, frame. And no, i'm not gonna mollycoddle that part of him.
Yes, I've been crushing head over heels over Be, but that was long ago. He's hot as hell, yes, and he's a big flirt, but we've settled our case and know we'll never have each other. It's friends/brother-sister/occasional flirt from now on, but nothing serious.
It could also be due to the fact that Bear is jealous because Be still has the job he once had. Well, then don't blame me for that. He lost the job because of some backstabbing colleague, and he's been applying left and right and getting somewhat mediocre offers. If he's jealous because he can't train me, then he should have taken up one of the offers that he (at the time) said wasn't lucrative enough. Honey, it doesn't look like you have that much of a choice, right?
Anyways, Be's offer (followed by his apparently impatient to "train me and see serious results coz i know you'll make it") really puts me in a good mood this morning, despite my back and arms threatening to fall off due to my drop-set training yesterday.
I'm all for training. I know how Be used to train me, and the result proved it. I'm all for it all over again if i have to.
And having a hot-as-hell, flirty trainer wouldn't hurt.
I guess that's a testament of 1) how out-of-shape i am and 2) how much he actually cares about my fitness level - professional and as a friend.
Thing is - we had a little history together - long before i dated Bear. I can already feel some awkwardness creeping just from the way Bear replies my text when I told him about Be's offer. But I still think i'm doing the right thing by being up front instead of keeping it a secret - which might fuel worse outcomes in the end.
Be had the quintessential badboy thing going on, which i naturally gravitated towards. The fact that he's *shamelessly* flirty also added to the fling-ish trainer-student relationship. Which was fun at the time, sort of re-living my adolescent days when you're trying to guess and (over) analyze every little move, glance, touch and smile.
And yes, Bear was completely and fully aware of this situation, long before I was transfered to him when Be was promoted as lead trainer at another branch. I openly discussed my "relationship" with him during his courtship attempt - i wasn't being mean, mind you, i just want to know how serious he was. Yes, at one point i was trying to push him away, but he persistently stayed by my side, figuratively and literally. So yeah, we ended up dating. A little over a year now.
But i guess one's true nature will come out one time or another. For an apparently very very VERY patient human being, Bear's got jealousy ingrained somewhere in his big, muscular, frame. And no, i'm not gonna mollycoddle that part of him.
Yes, I've been crushing head over heels over Be, but that was long ago. He's hot as hell, yes, and he's a big flirt, but we've settled our case and know we'll never have each other. It's friends/brother-sister/occasional flirt from now on, but nothing serious.
It could also be due to the fact that Bear is jealous because Be still has the job he once had. Well, then don't blame me for that. He lost the job because of some backstabbing colleague, and he's been applying left and right and getting somewhat mediocre offers. If he's jealous because he can't train me, then he should have taken up one of the offers that he (at the time) said wasn't lucrative enough. Honey, it doesn't look like you have that much of a choice, right?
Anyways, Be's offer (followed by his apparently impatient to "train me and see serious results coz i know you'll make it") really puts me in a good mood this morning, despite my back and arms threatening to fall off due to my drop-set training yesterday.
I'm all for training. I know how Be used to train me, and the result proved it. I'm all for it all over again if i have to.
And having a hot-as-hell, flirty trainer wouldn't hurt.