hi
I'm happy to say that finally, finally, I am comfortable with me. I'm comfortable being around those I have to be around everyday. I'm no longer annoyed to see some people, no longer annoyed to hear some people's voices, no longer annoyed just to be in the prescence of anyone besides myself. Of course my life is not ideal but I'm comfortable. It's bearable.
I'm wondering if graduation has anything to do with it. It might be the fact that I know I'm getting away from everything that's been bothering me so it makes it easier for me to be able to put up with it for these last few weeks. Almost there........... here I come. And other things that used to burn within my soul- well they still burn within my soul because some things just aren't right and never will be- but they've become a little more tolerable. I don't have to cringe everytime I think about it. With one person that took up such a big part of my heart- well he still does because that won't ever change- but everything's a learning experience *one that I won't ever forget, mind you* I've come to see that what I had for him was extreme like and a smidgin of lust- not love. I realized that love wouldn't do that to someone's soul. Love is a happy feeling, one of joy, forgiveness, and last but not least wisdom; not one of bitterness, wrath, and scorn.
With the exception of the sound of my mother's irritating voice ringing in my ears everyday, it's all good. I'm so thankful to God for helping me develop a good spirit. I thank my friends, too, who sometimes are much wiser than I could ever be. Thank you and I love you!!!!!!!