SEX.
I shall abstain because if I withdraw myself from the sexual aspect in human relationships, I'll be able to figure out the emotional relevance of the so called bond... If it even exists at all.
I'd like the reject these advances so that I can actually attribute a higher level of value to that type of connection. I feel objectified by some people (and sometimes even myself) for their blunt diction. That is another thing that I brought upon myself. I'm by no means anyone's booty call, reason to cheat, fantasy bunny. I'm beautiful and should be treated with respect. At the same time, this twisted portrayl of my true self was created only by my own means. Maybe it started when I told my first serious boyfriend that he was my first when he wasn't.. Then he cheated on me. Maybe it was when my body was taken advantage of without my consent and I could have fought harder but didn't. Maybe it was all the tension I'd help create in the build up that to just leave it at that would've been cruel. Maybe it all started when I decided to feel nothing when it would happen...
What would you do if sex weren't an option? What would I do if the only way to bond with others was through genuine emotional understanding? What if I remove it from my vocabulary and replace it with productive dialogue? One's beauty is not determined by how many suitors they have, rather by their confidence, their intelligence, their sense of humor, all the qualities that forms their unique nature.
Present tense? I feel beautiful.. I love my curvey butt, my smile, my hazel eyes, but I also love my mind, my heart, my strength my creativity. I'm saving myself from here on out for he who deserves me, respects me.. no one else. NO ONE ELSE.
Dino would be proud.
Loves buckets and puddles.
I'd like the reject these advances so that I can actually attribute a higher level of value to that type of connection. I feel objectified by some people (and sometimes even myself) for their blunt diction. That is another thing that I brought upon myself. I'm by no means anyone's booty call, reason to cheat, fantasy bunny. I'm beautiful and should be treated with respect. At the same time, this twisted portrayl of my true self was created only by my own means. Maybe it started when I told my first serious boyfriend that he was my first when he wasn't.. Then he cheated on me. Maybe it was when my body was taken advantage of without my consent and I could have fought harder but didn't. Maybe it was all the tension I'd help create in the build up that to just leave it at that would've been cruel. Maybe it all started when I decided to feel nothing when it would happen...
What would you do if sex weren't an option? What would I do if the only way to bond with others was through genuine emotional understanding? What if I remove it from my vocabulary and replace it with productive dialogue? One's beauty is not determined by how many suitors they have, rather by their confidence, their intelligence, their sense of humor, all the qualities that forms their unique nature.
Present tense? I feel beautiful.. I love my curvey butt, my smile, my hazel eyes, but I also love my mind, my heart, my strength my creativity. I'm saving myself from here on out for he who deserves me, respects me.. no one else. NO ONE ELSE.
Dino would be proud.
Loves buckets and puddles.